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Basically. She had just recently broken up with a longterm boyfriend (even though I wouldn't really call what they had a relationship). I had known her for almost a year at that point. She had wanted to date around, and one of those nights she went out with me. After a light dinner, we went back to her apartment and watched some silly romantic movie (one of the scores of films with Hugh Grant...), with me holding her in my arms and us holding hands the whole time. Well, movie ended, room was dark...you get the picture.
Anyway, she started acting weird to me the next few days. This bothered me especially because she is a girl who often does the one night hook-up thing - she is able to spend one night with a person and still be friends with them. I am confused. So I confront her. Basically, she said that she had never felt like that before, especially after only one night together. It scared her, but mostly made her sad because I was leaving. I told her how I felt (that I really did like her, but realized that it was best for both of us if we stayed apart) and that, really, having her as a best friend was far more important to me than having a girlfriend. We left it at - we shall just be friends but, in the future, if she wanted a boyfriend and I was available I would certainly oblige.
I fell harder for her than I thought. She did too, but tried her best to put it to the back of her mind. I knew I wasn't falling in love with her in the romantic sense, but I love her more than anything as my best friend. So, it's like one of those pacts that you see on TV..."if you're not married by the time you're (insert age here), then you're gonna marry me, okay?"
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"I've made only one mistake in my life. But I made it over and over and over. That was saying 'yes' when I meant 'no'. Forgive me."
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