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Well for starters I would seriously consider checking yourself out for any psychological issues which might be making things worse. Obviously you are under a lot of stress, and anyone would be upset in your situation even without a boyfriend living 3 hours away, but it sounds like you are reacting in a way which is just making things worse. I would specifically look for signs of clinical depression and/or anxiety and/or obsessive-compulsive disorder.
Another really important thing is to find someone to talk to who is NOT your boyfriend or family. You need someone who is outside your situation, and delightful though this forum is, it's better to do this sort of thing in person. See if your school (especially the college) has any sort of free counseling available, with real practising counselors and not random people who like to listen. If that doesn't pan out, try your advisor at school, academic or otherwise. This gives you a chance to work things out because you are less likely to lash out at a third party--and even if you do, they are paid to put up with you ;-)
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