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Windbreaker · 08-11-2004, 10:35 AM

Hey tilted.. I been trolling the forums for a while now, I like to search the site when I have a problem with things. It would seem every problem I ever had someone else has had one similiar and posted about it.. I read through the things to find some usefull information. This site is full of usefull information.

Well, I got myself into a more or less unique situation.. Unique enough that my searches led me no where so I am making this post.

Over the last 2 years I've been extremely attracted to my best friends sister.. She is 2 years younger then me (i turned 18 recently). We talked all the time, she called me her "best friend" and it was pretty clear I was.. I was atleast closer to her then anyone else that I knew of, she talked to me constantly on the phone, after 8 months she moved to Montanna to live with her mom. During the roughly 8 months she spent in Montanna we talked on the phone almost everyday.. I didn't see myself in a relationship with her but at times I wished it..

She eventualy moved back to sunny nor cal.. And we continued to talk to each other on a regular bases. About 3 weeks ago I accompanied there family on a week long camping trip to FortBragg.. During the trip we found ourself getting closer then we ever had.. It got to the point of us dry humping each other and her wanting sex.. Well shortly after this blessing from God her dad caught me checking her for breast cancer.. Lucky me it was the 2nd to last day of the camping trip so I only had to spend 2 agonising days with a man who wanted to kick my skull in.. Nevertheless I felt we had advanced the relationship to the nxt level.. She gave me the impression we did but to my dismay she calls me from her cousins (her dad wont let her use the phone) and they are planning to go to mantika(sp) for the day.. Her cousin asks me what I would think of Jes (my gf, or so I thought) having a booty call..

Didn't quite know what to tell her.. I had thought all this time we were dating, she never gave me a reason to think otherwise.. So I said "I would be disapointed" trying to act as if I never thought we were in a relationship.. Don't ask me why, I felt hurt inside but I didn't want to show it...

Her cousin gives jes the phone and I ask her if she is planning to have sex with this guy at Mantika and she turns to her cousin and asks "Think we will have sex?" and I can hear her cousins reply "Yes... well I don't know". Had a loss of words.. Paused for a good second and then forced myself to choke back any feelings/emotions and to just played it off like it wasnt really my concern... After a while I asked her if she wanted to have a "booty call" with me.. She asked me what I thought and I said yes, I knew she wanted to have sex with me but I don't want sex..

I want a relationship.. A girl to wrap my arms around and spoil and I want it to last.. I couldn't see myself having a booty call.. Not with a girl who has sex like that, to me thats like disrespecting your body ( my opinion ). So anyways, that night I couldn't sleep (last night). I ended up falling asleep around 4, woke up at 6 and txt msgs her hopeing she has fun at mantika and asked her to not have a booty call pls..

Feel like I should just shut her out of my life because a relationship with her would only leave me emotionaly ravaged.. I keep trying to find it in myself to have a "booty call" with her, but I feel soon as we have sex I will want more.. I can't get off without there being passion involved.. I tried to have a booty call before.. I couldnt get off to it, sex to me is more then just the sex part..

So I guess what I am getting at is.. Do I place my emotions aside and fuck her or maybe I should tell her how I feel? Then there is always moveing her aside and letting life go on.. Your opinions on the situation is greatly appreciated.

Would also like to add that I am sorry for my horrible spelling and grammer..

08-11-2004, 10:35 AM	#1 (permalink)
Windbreaker Upright	A booty call? Hey tilted.. I been trolling the forums for a while now, I like to search the site when I have a problem with things. It would seem every problem I ever had someone else has had one similiar and posted about it.. I read through the things to find some usefull information. This site is full of usefull information. Well, I got myself into a more or less unique situation.. Unique enough that my searches led me no where so I am making this post. Over the last 2 years I've been extremely attracted to my best friends sister.. She is 2 years younger then me (i turned 18 recently). We talked all the time, she called me her "best friend" and it was pretty clear I was.. I was atleast closer to her then anyone else that I knew of, she talked to me constantly on the phone, after 8 months she moved to Montanna to live with her mom. During the roughly 8 months she spent in Montanna we talked on the phone almost everyday.. I didn't see myself in a relationship with her but at times I wished it.. She eventualy moved back to sunny nor cal.. And we continued to talk to each other on a regular bases. About 3 weeks ago I accompanied there family on a week long camping trip to FortBragg.. During the trip we found ourself getting closer then we ever had.. It got to the point of us dry humping each other and her wanting sex.. Well shortly after this blessing from God her dad caught me checking her for breast cancer.. Lucky me it was the 2nd to last day of the camping trip so I only had to spend 2 agonising days with a man who wanted to kick my skull in.. Nevertheless I felt we had advanced the relationship to the nxt level.. She gave me the impression we did but to my dismay she calls me from her cousins (her dad wont let her use the phone) and they are planning to go to mantika(sp) for the day.. Her cousin asks me what I would think of Jes (my gf, or so I thought) having a booty call.. Didn't quite know what to tell her.. I had thought all this time we were dating, she never gave me a reason to think otherwise.. So I said "I would be disapointed" trying to act as if I never thought we were in a relationship.. Don't ask me why, I felt hurt inside but I didn't want to show it... Her cousin gives jes the phone and I ask her if she is planning to have sex with this guy at Mantika and she turns to her cousin and asks "Think we will have sex?" and I can hear her cousins reply "Yes... well I don't know". Had a loss of words.. Paused for a good second and then forced myself to choke back any feelings/emotions and to just played it off like it wasnt really my concern... After a while I asked her if she wanted to have a "booty call" with me.. She asked me what I thought and I said yes, I knew she wanted to have sex with me but I don't want sex.. I want a relationship.. A girl to wrap my arms around and spoil and I want it to last.. I couldn't see myself having a booty call.. Not with a girl who has sex like that, to me thats like disrespecting your body ( my opinion ). So anyways, that night I couldn't sleep (last night). I ended up falling asleep around 4, woke up at 6 and txt msgs her hopeing she has fun at mantika and asked her to not have a booty call pls.. Feel like I should just shut her out of my life because a relationship with her would only leave me emotionaly ravaged.. I keep trying to find it in myself to have a "booty call" with her, but I feel soon as we have sex I will want more.. I can't get off without there being passion involved.. I tried to have a booty call before.. I couldnt get off to it, sex to me is more then just the sex part.. So I guess what I am getting at is.. Do I place my emotions aside and fuck her or maybe I should tell her how I feel? Then there is always moveing her aside and letting life go on.. Your opinions on the situation is greatly appreciated. Would also like to add that I am sorry for my horrible spelling and grammer.. __________________ Whadata!