stonegrody

I get my faith from everything around me. I'm not a religious person nor do I categorize myself into any one denomination. I see the way everything works and it makes me believe that there is a power in our universe that is much greater than anything we can imagine. Something that brings a balance to all things. Anything from the way the tides work to the way our own bodies are designed. Everything just works. No human could come up with such brilliance. If something doesn't work, it evolves until it does. For good there is bad. For up there is down. I don't know what this force is or if we will ever know. I just know that it is there.

I have struggled with depression since I was a child to this very day. For me, it is not something that happened or something that went wrong, it is just overwhelming sadness that I cannot get over for days to weeks at a time. I know there are drugs I could take to help me with this but I would rather deal with it on my own. I know that for every down, there's an up. Even if that up is simply not being down anymore. There will be balance. I have to believe that. Otherwise, what is this all for? I work with what I have and try to make the best of it. I have faith that I will find the answers to the questions that linger in my head when I die. If there is absolute nothingness, that will be my answer. Will I be aware of it? Who knows. Will we move on to something else after this life is over? We will find out. Will the way we lived in this world matter in the next? We'll see. So many questions, so many possibilities. I'm excited to find out. But I will live this life to the fullest for as long as this body will sustain me.

Look at the big picture. Could this all be a fluke? A random sequence of coincidences? If it is, how lucky are we to be alive and conscious?

Very.

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