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I am currently working on a roomate but I refuse to have a stranger in my home and that mat provide a problem. I will know in 2 weeks if this will work out. My kids have been sleeping with me in my room which is nice but sometimes I feel smothered. I don't think they want me to think about him and what he did to us but I can't help it. My kids and I had a program where my son had sports or swimming and my daughter and I worked out but had to put that on hold with the broken toe. As for the dog....Its not so much I dont want to give in but he won't take care of him. He never feeds the animals or takes them to the vet for shots or checkups. And last time we split I let him have one of the cats and let's just say 4 months after that the cat was gone. My animals are like my kids, ya know. I have alot of friends I have met online but very few in everyday life. I enjoy games and have accounts in a few rp games, like to go to the movies with my kids, ect...but right now I cannot seem to find the motivation. And on another note....the relationship wasn't all bad. He did give alot in certain areas but not the ones he needed to. I mean he would cook and bring me breakfast in the mornings on his day off and love making was awesome. But on the other hand when I REALLY needed him he was not here for me. I have had to go to the ER for extreme migrains, broken toe, and several other problems over the years and he would never take me. I had to drive myself or take a cab. Once I had to lie to the ER so they would treat me. Tols em I had ride when I did not. He would brag to his family about being happy that he was a freespirit and not being tied down to a wife and kids. Just alot of little hurtful things like that ended up breaking my spirit. I guess I compared him to other men and how some treat their women and I figured I didnt have it so bad after all. And don't get me wrong I am not pinpointing men, I know women mistreat men as well.
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