chuj

Hi everybody - this is my first post.

Theres this girl that's in my life right now, and I used to be in love with her. I had never said anything or made any kind of move, because during the time that I felt this way she'd been seeing somebody, and it really wasnt my bag/style to interfere with that. So instead, I settled being friends with her, and we developed a very plutonic relationship. We decided that we were going to move in together (along with another mutual friend) for the upcoming school year.

Now, almost a year after we'd first met I have mixed feelings about our whole... er, relationship. Do I really want to move-in with this girl, that I used to have very serious feelings for? Right now, I'm not sure how I feel about her. Three months ago I would have been ready to do anything to have her. But now, the absence of those feelings makes me think twice about our entire friendship, and whether the entire thing was really just a subconscious run-down or chase, that now, in retrospect, simply doesn't make any sense.

I've been sitting on this egg for awhile, and its got to the point that I feel something should be done or said... but at the same time, I have this feeling of dread that if I venture from the status quo - I could lose her from mylife forever. I dont want that to happen.

I'm looking for some advice from anyone who might have been in a similar situation, or anyone whose just got some insight. Anything would be great, as I think I've exhuasted/denied just about all my own options on this.