Lots of good thoughts here. Pinkie, I think your's is the closest on to what I was thinking about, though. However, I think I should have probably given more info when I posted, but it was late and I needed to get to bed.
This girl and I met through a mutual friend. Actually, we talked for a week or so online before we first met each other in person. From things she said and bits she had written, I was completely convinced that this girl was just amazing and we had so much in common it was ridiculous. What really got me was something she wrote in her blog about what she was looking for in a guy and so I jumped on it. Things went so well talking that <i>she</i> asked to meet for coffee the first time. I figured I must have said something right. Let me make this plain: I made the first move and then she showed great enthusiasm about me. I was just stoked that it was happening and let it ride...
From our mutual friend, I knew a little bit of her back story; well, just about her ex that really took advantage of her that he had introduced to her. Out of respect, I won't continue with that story...
When we met, I held back and she pretty much led the conversation, talking about her family, and music, and inevitably her two ex's that messed with her head and heart so badly. I was quiet, but in my mind felt I didn't have anything to prove anyway. At the end of the evening (4.5 hrs later) she hugged me and asked to do this again to which I agreed. That evening when I got home I emailed her telling her that she was everything that I had expected (I was joking with her that she'd better be as cool in person as she made herself out to be).
Conversation since then (3 weeks ago) has been virtually non-existent. I emailed her a couple of times, one of which was to try and set up another meeting, but she cited schedule issues (work and such). I tried calling, but got her voicemail and no response. Last night I emailed one more time trying to make light of the growing weirdness. Now I wait.
So now a million "what ifs" are swirling in my head. She'll post to her blog wistful, pensive lyrics and I don't know who they're about. Busy or not, I don't understand why you can't pick up the phone and just call and say "hey" for two minutes. Is she scared? Is she not interested? Is there someone else she met recently? Is there someone else that she knew before me? Those are my questions.
And I can't say I did anything wrong. I didn't wuss out in the least. I guess my problem is being aggravated by something that was so good so fast feeling like it's going sour even faster.
Thanks everyone
