follower of the child's crusade?
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So what do I do now?
Ok, well, here is the story:
I got talking to this girl who works at a store near me, and she gave me her numbr. We went on a couple of dates but noithing intimate happened but we got on pretty well. Then she told me she was going ti get back with her ex, and she was realy sweet about it... I was disappointed cos I liked her, but I didnt feel so bad and we still would stay in touch as friends, and its not like anything was promised, I kind of felt like, ok, we tried a couple of dats and we got on well, but there was no spark but it was cool... but then today I saw her at the store she works at and she told me she was scared of her ex and he treated her like crap and was so aggressive to her, and she wanted to get away from him, but she was scared what he would do...
And so, my instant feeling is that I should go to his house, kick his door in and beat the shit out of him... but it isnt so practical
!) I might just get arrested
2) he might beat me up anyway, I mean, Im a pretty big guy, and at school I won a lot of fights, but I havent like thrown a punch since I was 19. I have this emotional sense that i could just get so mad I could beat him down, but realistically, he might just kick my ass, and what would I achieve then? I'm not so much scared of getting hurt (although I am a little scared if I think about it!) but if I just lose, it will makes things worse for her and then I'd probably go and do something real stupid to try and make it better
3) she wasnt saying that he hit or anything (I mean, iif he did beat her up, I wouldnt be talking on the internet about what to do, I'd be at his house now), just that he scares her and acts aggresive, so anyway what if she likes him again tomorrow, she will just hate me if I do anything... and so if she liked me better than him she wouldnt be getting back with him
4) and I am thinking, why does she tell me this? Does she want me to fight him? Cos if she does, then I wouldnt like that sort of girl anyway, if she was just trying to engineer a fight for her own sake, and I dont think she is that way, but I am self aware to tell that she is the first girl I dated in like 3 years, so I am not likely tp be very objective in how I see her.
She just, well, when she was saying how she was scared I just wanted to protect her, and I feel like... well, Im not so good looking and I may not be anyone's dream guy, but if you need protection, protection is the one thing I can do... I dont know... mayeb I should just call her when her shift is over, or call her at work and tell her to come to my flat and talk it through... I really hate people who bully girls, I suppose its sexist in my way that I just want to be the big strong protective guy, and obv the fact I like her and she acted like she liked me,.. it magnifies my feelings.
I dont think he has actually hit her anyway, if he has or did it'll be over... but I dont know... I just dont know. It doesnt make sense anyway. Why do girls stay with people who treat them bad (and she was almost crying when I talked to her today, so she cant LIKE how he treats her)... for sure I know I am not so good looking, Im very heavy too, but she never would have dated me if my looks were a big issue to her, so why do people prefer people that they say they dont like to people like me who they say are so nice and so sweet and they really wish the best for (but they just want to date)
Ok, I am losing the point now, I just dont know what to do. I think I shall call her or go see her just before 8 when she gets off work and try and find out whats really going on. Even if she doesnt want to date me, I can make this guy leave her alone anyway, if that is what she really wants.
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"Do not tell lies, and do not do what you hate,
for all things are plain in the sight of Heaven. For nothing
hidden will not become manifest, and nothing covered will remain
without being uncovered."
The Gospel of Thomas
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