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The manager of our apts hurt me. I had helped her numerous times and yet she turned on me after 2 years of that. Needless to say I was hurt. I find that if I allow my mind to replay things she did or said or things I'd like to do TO her that my whole body suffers. I get tense, tired, headaches, and blood pressure problems. I can't allow it. Doesn't make it any easier though. I try my best to find engaging things to do. Things that involve my mind. Reading a book doesn't always help because eventually my mind will wander. Doing something like baking sometimes helps. I'm constantly checking my recipe, I always have a little helper or two to watch and help, and I'm talking. When my mouth is moving I can't think about something other than what I'm saying. Sometimes finding a song I like and belting it out helps. (My favorite when I'm angry with her is "RedNeck Woman". It just fits my mood and situation.) I'll reorganize the closet, watch some engaging educational television or a movie that I LOVE and can't daydream during. Anything to break the cycle of my mind going back to the incident. A couple times I've said aloud "What she said was stupid, I don't have to listen to it." It doesn't exactly help that much and if I don't reengage my mind afterwards I'll just go back to replaying. But if I say it and then get busy, the next time those thoughts come back they are much easier to replace.
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