Not having a healthy relationship with the parents is the most difficult thing to deal with- many mask it, but you are actually trying to conquer the feelings and thoughts you have- way to go. Don't let it eat you away, it can affect every other aspect of your life.
It is a case of "conditional love", that which we are not given. We've been given the boundless gift of Unconditional Love, yet man has devised ways to set conditions on relationships and events in their lives. It is hurtful, especially when your parents do it. Religions can tend to do that, it's almost like a brainwashing method. Now, I respect all religions, and every human for that matter, although it's sad to see that people follow what others tell them they should do/believe/say/accept/etc. For you, this is a message- an experience in which will eventually (if not right away) shine a light on who you really are. This is your time! Now's the time to ask yourself what makes you feel good, what works for you, what your dreams and passions are, and go for them! You are limitless and you are loved, don't doubt it and don't let others tell you you're not! You are what you tell yourself you are!
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