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Alyssa · 06-29-2004, 12:35 AM

I was in a seven year relationship that was also a long distance one during the last two years of it. Out of nowhere my boyfriend at the time called me up and decided to end it.

Two years later, I feel like I'm still chasing a ghost. There is nothing there to grab onto. Yet I still feel his presence.

At that time I wasn't ready to end it...I can't stop missing him. I feel like I need closure to this somehow....when will this pain end? I'm looking for that magic button that will erase him out of my life. On top of that, I'm in another relationship. My current BF (of 10 months) is away on a month long vacation right now and I am sad to admit that I think of my ex more than him.

I must be an awful person.

I feel a need to reach out to my ex...not to get back together with him, but to just let him know that I'm still out there...I still hurt, my heart is still aching. But at the same time, I don't see how that would do any good. It's been so long since I heard from him....*sigh*

I feel like I'm a psycho ex-girlfriend...I'm so confused.

06-29-2004, 12:35 AM	#1 (permalink)
Alyssa Tilted Location: Chico, Ca.	How to fall out f love with the ex I was in a seven year relationship that was also a long distance one during the last two years of it. Out of nowhere my boyfriend at the time called me up and decided to end it. Two years later, I feel like I'm still chasing a ghost. There is nothing there to grab onto. Yet I still feel his presence. At that time I wasn't ready to end it...I can't stop missing him. I feel like I need closure to this somehow....when will this pain end? I'm looking for that magic button that will erase him out of my life. On top of that, I'm in another relationship. My current BF (of 10 months) is away on a month long vacation right now and I am sad to admit that I think of my ex more than him. I must be an awful person. I feel a need to reach out to my ex...not to get back together with him, but to just let him know that I'm still out there...I still hurt, my heart is still aching. But at the same time, I don't see how that would do any good. It's been so long since I heard from him....sigh I feel like I'm a psycho ex-girlfriend...I'm so confused.