So, here's the situation.
I ended up by circumstance more than choice attending the same college as my high school girlfriend, who I had been with more or less four years. We stayed together while we were there, but in November or so I met another girl who I really liked. (She was actually attracted to my girlfriend, first, which is how I met her... heh)
So after a lot of emotional wrangling, I ended up with the new girl. She wanted to make it clear to me that it wasn't going to be an overly attached relationship, because she was afraid. She'd had a string of bad relationships, and she had been hurt a lot recently. She *said* that she wouldn't let herself get jealous if I were interested in other girls... but you can see where this is going.
Anyhow, I'm home now, and I'm finding myself attracted still to my old girlfriend. I know anything with her is out of the question, though, because we're strictly remaining just friends for the moment. I'm still with my new girlfriend, because she lives close enough that we can see each other weekly, usually. The problem is, I just talked to another female friend of mine, who I was always attracted to, and never really got the chance to act on it, because I was always with said old girlfriend. Now this other friend has expressed interest in me, and we left an indefinite plan to get together at least a few times over the summer, before we're both off at school again.
I probably don't really need to explain my dilemma (I'm sure you've heard it before
), but I will anyway. I really like being with my current girlfriend. She enjoys doing the same things as me (we play video games together... how cool is that?), and I think she might even like sex more than I do. My problem is, I'm getting into my "restless" phase, being at home in a small town, after my first year of college... I don't want to hurt my girlfriend, and I certainly don't want to hurt our relationship. The only problem is, I think the relationship might be hurt if I don't satisfy my curiosity, as well as if I do.
Bah.
So I just keep coming back to my thread title. I'm a horny jackass. I want to go fool around with other girls and still leave my current options open. It's not really fair to anyone involved, but I just can't get the silly thoughts out of my head. Damn me and my immaturity.
Well, anyway. I don't know what advice anyone can give. I'm not sure if I even need it necessarily, but I certainly needed to tell someone. And at the moment, nobody I mentioned in the thread is an option, unfortunately. Well, we'll see what happens. Maybe I'll just sleep on it. For like a month.