I guess I should cough up a bit more info at this point, eh?
maleficent, I really thought over what you said, and what I came up with is this: I love my boyfriend very much, and this is something that I feel I am ready to share with him. I started this thread because I think that my fear is irrational. I know that with the pill and a condom, we'd be very protected, and chances of pregnancy are very slim. I *know* this, but the fear is still there, and thats what I can't figure out....
For right now, I'm going with the theory that, if I'm not sure about ANYTHING, then I shouldn't be doing this... But I still feel that I'm being irrational and don't know how to get over it...
Thanks so much for all your advice. It's really helpful. And thanks for listening to me rant