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I know exactly how you feel. I've been on everything from Welbutrin to Paxil to Trazodone, and yes, it does hinder your ability to feel emotion in some cases. I've never been one to really express emotion to others, but past antidepressants have kept me from feeling it altogether, and I was actually thankful for that in a way.
Unfortunately, a lot of people settle for the "I don't give a shit attitude," because they feel that its better than sitting around being miserable. You do have three options though.
One, stay on the Zoloft and try to work around these feelings, or lack thereof. If its preventing your typical emotion but making you miserable because of that, its not doing its job as an antidepressant.
Two, talk to your doctor and try another prescription. I can't emphasize how important this is. Everyone is different, and you really need to do some exploring and find the right combination that works for you. I haven't found the right combination yet, but I have learned which ones to stay away from (search for my post on Paxil Withdrawal).
The third possibility, stop taking them altogether. A lot of people get to a point where they feel that they don't want to have to rely on pills to make it through the day, and thats fine, but be prepared for a bit of a system shock, both physically and psychologically.
However, if you don't necessarily have these feelings for her, don't try to convince yourself that you do. I was in a very similar situation, and broke up with my ex after 2 years 3 months. I was 100% sure that she was the one I wanted to be with, and was miserable for months after. I realized soon thereafter, that it wasn't her that I really wanted to be with, as much as it was just somebody that I wanted to be with. I completely phased her out of my life cold turkey (this is the ONLY way to do it, trust me), and was lucky enough to meet the most wonderful person in the world a few months later.
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