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wilbjammin - I know why I <i>was</i> with her. That is, I know why I started it in the first place. I had a bit of a crush on her, then a group of our friends spent a week at a beach house and she and I really hit it off. We were into the same music, unlike anybody I know, she wasn't afraid to speak her mind, she was so confident, she went out a lot, she drank and wasn't uptight (when I realized I had a crush on her was when I saw her and her friends having a few drinks and watching porn at the beach house and everyone having a laugh!), she's really creative and into art, she wasn't shy, she is beautiful. We had so much in common.
Almost all of that has changed in the past year though. She berates me for drinking if we go out, she doesn't like going out anymore, and if she does, she likes to go home before midnight, our music taste has changed (although that doesn't make a difference), she is insecure and become dependent on me, she has very set views on sex (she will do NOTHING but straight missionary, no oral, no foreplay), she firmly believes that the guy should always drive because it's the man's job, she believes that men are animals (eg. porn is evil, FFM porn is purely for the man's pleasure, having two women at once, MMF porn simulates gang-rape, anything but missionary is demeaning, etc.). Basically so many of the things I saw in her a year aren't there, or if they are, have become so entwined in me that she doesn't seem like her own person anymore.
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