la petite moi - she's 20, I'm about six months older than her. You say I should be more patient with her but I'm finding it incredibly hard to do that these days. I feel like every positive thing I do for her does nothing but raise the bar for next time. If I do something nice, no matter how minor, it means that that's now the minimum I should do. If you search for my name on the boards I think you'll find that well over half my posts are about her, for almost the past year I would imagine.
Normally I would be encouraged by lack of progress. With her, and with everything I've said above, I'm going the opposite way. And the strange (and heartbreaking) thing about it is that I'm struggling to feel like I should be patient, and that I should be there for her, and that I do even love her.
After browsing through some of my old posts I see such a recurring theme. My unhappiness with her smothering and neediness, versus my independence and confidence that she and I are a couple.
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