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Why does sex make me feel guilty?
And well, it just can't be me can it? And I dont really mean actual sex, since I havent had any in years... but the fact I have porno mp3's makes me feel guilty, and sometimes I feel bad and delete them all, I feel pretty ashamed about a lot of sexual thoughts that I have - although I can talk about it online in real life I wouldnt really talk about sex other than the most basic macho bs (ie - "would you with her?" "oh yeah"... or "no way")
But why do people, or at least some people or people like me, attach guilt and shame to sexual feelings and desires... why are we ashamed to go into an adult store? Why do I hide my porno mp3's in places on my pc that no one else can find if they ever wanted to use it (and why do I feel really paranoid and delete them every now and again) - why would I never be able to buy a pack of condoms if a girl was serving at the chemists?
I mean, it isnt just me, right? Other people feel like this too?
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"Do not tell lies, and do not do what you hate,
for all things are plain in the sight of Heaven. For nothing
hidden will not become manifest, and nothing covered will remain
without being uncovered."
The Gospel of Thomas
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