All of us have our inner demons to face. Some people get through life without ever having to come to terms with them, others struggle everyday to overcome them.
I too struggle on a daily basis to "get through" the day. You have to tell yourself that there is something beyond what you are dealing with now. I believe in you. But YOU have to believe in you.
Understand also that there are many people like yourself you are not alone.
1)I also was involved in a long term relationship (6 years) and it ended right before we were supposed to be married. Know that there is not just one person out there for you. Like me, you will find the right one IN TIME. I cannot stress this enough. You are young you have soooo much time to find the one. I dont think this girl was that one for you. You are regretting your decision now only bc you dont have someone at the present time. You WILL find this person.
2)I too have depression and anxiety. It also runs in my family. I cannot stress enough how importent it is to talk this all out with a therapist or someone you trust. You have got to snap out of what you are doing to yourself and regain control on your life. It is YOUR life and no one elses.
3)Self mutilation is only going to bring you farther down. This is no answer to what you are feeling. While it feels like you are in control of what you are doing to yourself, quite the opposite is actually happening. You need to regain control once again to end all this.
I really want to help you and I am sure many others here feel the same. You have many people here who care what happens to you.
Please PM if you ever need to talk or send me an email.
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