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Who do you hide from (kinda long)
Is there anyone you can be completely open with? I mean utterly and totally be yourself whomever that may be and feel so comfortable because you know they feel the same way. This doesn't have to be in a romantic relationship type of thing, but just one person to another.
Are there certain people you hide from as well? Like are afraid to be completely true to yourself. I put this in the sexuality forum because it just seems so raw and intimate when you get down to it sometimes i guess. I'm sorta bummed because as of late, i'm learning a lot more about my best friend than i've ever known before. He's made a point of hiding this aspect of his life from me. We were intimate at one point in time and we're very close now, but there are some things it almost feels like he's embarassed to talk about with me, even though i'm incredibly open and accepting of virtually anything. I wish i didn't have to find out things indirectly i guess.
I feel vulnerable because I feel like i've exposed myself almost as much as i'm aware i can to him in that regards (when we were still officially together) and although he's accepting of me, he can't open up the same. It just feels like he's uncomfortable around me sometimes... Hmm...
I'm beginning to notice a pattern recently. I think the fact that i am very open and willing to try new things (not just sexually but in life in general) is a bit scary to some people. I've had a few of my friends pull away because they're getting too close and it really hurts. I just want to get to a point that i can lose myself completely in someone and have them do the same. Just get wrapped up and swept away with life. That's not going to happen though because i seem to keep having people back away from me when they get too close.
I do'nt want to put up walls either, that's not who i am, but when i wear my proverbial heart on my sleave, it leaves the opportunity for it to get stomped on in life a lot more often than i'd like it to.
Damn the passion.
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