(i can't believe i made it through readin that entire thing) but i know what it's like having problems getting over someone and would be glad to offer my two cents.
first of all, regardless of how badly anyone thinks of themselves, they always deserve to have someone who loves them. Don't doubt that about yourself EVER. As far as R, don't view her moving on with another successful boyfriend as something to be jealous about, it just wasn't right for the two of you. Do what you can to be close to her and remain friends or at least a part of each other's lives.
Keep in mind, that you need to date a few of the wrong women in order to truly appreciate the right one. Mourn whatever lost relationship you may have had with her, and devote your attention to your newest girl K. She deserves the best from you. Don't hold back on loving her because of someone else. Love isn't something that can be rationed, there is always more, i promise.
Hope this helps *shrug*...
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