bow35

To be totally sold to someone you can't reach
I realize
I'm the great imposture
But there's one part that is missing

King of kings
lord of lords
are you psychopatic?
nazi dredd

I have media
a stage
senses

two examples
and a general rule
and you build a pyramid
king of kings
lord of lords
teacher, spread your ideology!

there has to be something inbetween
if there's a distance
air is invisible
but you can sense it when you breathe
nature is a thret
but not an enemy

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Ourcrazymodern?

What all our kids want
is a feeling of control:
You know who took it?

You know what takes it
as we theorize ourselves?
Lack of certainty -

The fear of knowing
that the long time, going on,
is getting shorter.

Still & all,
here's a solution;
Show yourselves.

They'll recognize you are them,
& indeed that they want to be you,
only somewhat happier.

-Maybe they can pass it along.
...........-It's easier on a farm.
.....................-& not an Animal Farm.

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bow35

Not to walk around in the same footprints
I have to learn
I have to reflect

To get out of the crisis
is a paradox

Giving up
and back to square one
again and again

Or
giving up
and back to square ten

The lonly
that tries to tell his story,
get in contact
is dismissed
because he is pathetic

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Ourcrazymodern?

I rarely call "foul!",
but my new friend, 35,
such thoughts won't help us.

While the candles burn away,
You see the wax run, disappearing,
not unknowing where it goes.

History unfolds
as written by the winners;
and as it happens.

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Idyllic

I
stretch my fingers
stretch my toes
tilt my head
and scratch my nose
close my eyes
and open my mouth
awaiting words to come tumbling out,
silent though
the room is quiet
listening closely
only stillness responds in echoes so loud
my ears hurt….
what is this I hear,
clickity clack the story
is red and written.

removed and re-digested it flows easier now.

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bow35

They helped ME. It's a documentation of what I observed turned into an expression, rather than an opinion.

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Idyllic

removed and re-digested, it does flow easier now, doesn't it?

"The lens we see life through is a family heirloom." unknown

Good morning.

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bow35

I take that personally, and my answer is that I still have to continue to digest, give up and try, again and again till I find myself. I say this because I've gotten used to the impossible.

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Idyllic

And when you find yourself you'll realize it's that journey that defines you, struggle though we will........, just to see the earth circle the sun IS an accomplishment.

The words you share shower your soul and by writing and then reading them you wash away the hours past and journey forward,
this journey defines us all, we are who we live each day and each day is a gift wrapped in a challenge, some are just easier than others.

We can only know ourselves by opening each challenge, and recognizing its gift, for each gift is part of the present you.

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p.s. I contradict my contradictions, with or without intention, sometimes.

Ourcrazymodern?

Well put, Idyllic,
I must concur with all that.
I was reacting.

I'm afraid your post, bow, sounded like a saddened sign-off, & I wished otherwise. It's not like I haven't inserted depressing non-sequiturs at random intervals. Please accept this expression of my opinion, & my apologies.

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Idyllic

That's the great thing about poetry, once one writes it, the meaning no longer belongs to them exclusively, the meaning morphs to fulfill the readers interpretation...... rarely, without obvious conclusions, does one truly understand exactly what the poet is trying to convince us, by we somehow feel what they meant to convey.....

What those who write of feelings must remember is that it doesn't really matter what the readers believe we wrote about, it only matters if they feel something, if they experience something familiar from the written words alone.

We feel you bow35, your not alone, we may not understand your exact words or interpret them precisely as you wish, but we feel them, or we wouldn't even be here posting "with" you.

Namaste OCM, I learned a new word today, thanks you. A redeemable day after all, for life really is all about the small pleasures and umbrella'd drinks. So Sweet.

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bow35

My post was again a release. A release of artistic pondering. And not a sign-off of any kind. No offense taken from your reaction. Just made me think of how powerful internet media is to us. How we get affected by the words written on the net.

Idyllic: You guys posting with me gives me great joy and something to think of in the evenings when I want to relax from the doings of the day in "the city". Art and therapy are siblings.

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bow35

´cause I'm a Zulu figther
that sold my body
Like a Yoga figther
that is sold to somebody
he can't reach.
'cause I'm a slave to Jah

And to her my love
she was a witch.
she was mother
and she was nature

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Idyllic

And your birth, was profound and worthy......
A day of rejoicing in the original gift of life.

Volcanoes and floods and death still,
Mother nature never means it personal,
Living just happens to be painful.

My grandmother used to tell me, "Life is good if you just don't weaken", but sometimes we don't get to choose when weakness arrives, it just does, still we can chose to decide if life is good. For me, it is a whole lot easier to find life good when I can expose the weakness and have help with not only its acceptance, but also help in being strong enough to live with it.

bwah, bwah, bwah..... I'm so full of bs, weakness sucks.... it's hard and lonely and self-confining, it's institutionalizing and embarrassing and just down right sad..... but I will not let it win, so in the end, somewhere deep inside me, and you and everyone who fights daily with their own personal weaknesses, we are strong. I have a gift to open, want to share the challenge?

It's another beautiful day.... my favorite gift of all.

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bow35

Yes I
love is the power of the weak
I have experienced it myself
the more hard times we go thrue
the more we are left to love
and the more we emancipate

And what you are wrting is not bs to me.

I heard of something called witness literature.
It's when you write even what you don't agree with
but are a witness of.

We have a Swedish author named Maj Gull Axelsson
She wrote a book: Rosario is dead.
It's a heavy load
but because it doesn't state an opinion
but rather just documents a tragedy
it's worth reading

Have anybody heard of this genre, witness literature?

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Ourcrazymodern?

Mine did too.
Grandmas have wisdom,
which they earned.

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Ourcrazymodern?

Two random 'musements
should kick-start motivations
writing history:

(I hope)

Don't beg to differ,
as our meanings are many,
that's all we can do.

Humanity's fellowship
is a myth & very dangerous
& not to be discouraged.

I wish you could read my notebook.

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bow35

Do beg to differ,
as your meaning is the only one you have,
that's all you can do.

Humanitys fellowship
is a mystical thing & not at all dangerous
It starts with you
and ends with you.

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Ourcrazymodern?

trying desperately hard
to make a connection & grow it
is always worth the effort.

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Idyllic

just need a little
water, sunshine
and love, always love,

even when the
raindrops sting
they feed you.

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p.s. I contradict my contradictions, with or without intention, sometimes.

bow35

You come thrue the sun
shining on me
frying my skin
brother, sister.

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Ourcrazymodern?

I have some lotion
& the will to rub it on
if you will let me.

Some fanatical rationalists
would have you believe as they're wanting you to.
Belief in yourself's more important.

& an irrelevant:

If I knew where my brains went,
communication, far less painful,
would surely be ensuing.

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bow35

Karin

Awake again
I can't pretend
and it was the end
allready long time ago
I was sleeping
how long have I've been dreaming
with all my mind

Ahhhh loosing my religion
steeling my blues
I'm not sputid
won't fool me twice
bajs

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Ourcrazymodern?

(What's bajs?)

Doom's not always a bad thing,
if possibilities make you think,
& you enjoy doing so.

Anticipating your doom
is something like waiting for Xmas
since you know it's on its way.

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bow35

"bajs" is Swedish for crap, shit, poo, duty

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Ourcrazymodern?

When a friend of mine married a Swede, I tried to learn a little. I didn't learn that one.

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Ourcrazymodern?

...How's your story coming?

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bow35

It's comming along mostly in Swedish theese days. I have been asked to hold a lecture in "psychological unhealth" in oktober so I'm focusing on writing about my life and my meeting with the proffesional psychiatry from a patient perspective. What has happened here on tilted forum is one of the (possitive) keys to my lecture.

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bow35

Hip psycho

When I had to do the military service
I was a hip psycho
and the psychiatrist got afraid of me
Oh, how I have paid for my ways

I talked to Ras on the phone
a brother man close to me

I belive
not in Dja
not in God
not in myself
I belive

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Ourcrazymodern?

Beside myself with pleasure,
I still feel so self-contained,
that outside's peripheral.

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Ourcrazymodern?

...y'know, as a perspective on unhealth...

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bow35

Yes, I've been thinking about your words the last days.
theese words in perticular:

Beside myself with pleasure,
I still feel so self-contained,
that outside's peripheral.

I think of the third eye
the eye that observes reality detached from dualism (happy and sad, rigth and wrong, and so on)
and I think of celestial beings in space (such a being has a peripheral outside, a never ending darkness, and then an occasional brother star in the distance)

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Ourcrazymodern?

I've been thinking of inside peripheries, & about where we really exist.

random:

A poison so smart
it targets your enemies
will still bite your ass.

& the song "Gimme Back My Bullets" has been running through my head.

"Some days are diamonds..."

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bow35

When a mosquito bites me
it inserts a poision
not very smart of him
cause it stings
and causes me to kill him.

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Ourcrazymodern?

Behaving that way
has unfortunate aspects.
We know what we've done.

Insects with poison
don't think of what they're doing,
but only do it.

Did you know I called Halx a poisonous hypnotic, once?
Do you know why no one will play with me?

...neither do I.

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bow35

Who's Halx?
and are you sure I will be a mosquito?

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Ourcrazymodern?

Halx is a man with a dangerous brain I admire. I'm sure you are not a mosquito.

Creativity conspires
to expand by itself with others.
Isn't that unusual?

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Idyllic

unusual true...
and truly captivating.

a mosquitos bite,
the greatest inoculation,
my first vaccine,
and I am one with my brothers,
bitten.

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p.s. I contradict my contradictions, with or without intention, sometimes.

bow35

a mosquito bites
I have surrendered
and the poision is suddenly my elexir

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Ourcrazymodern?

The Potions I Take.

I sat on the porch last night.
I listened north & south & within.
I heard too much, but liked it.

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