MindBabble

Hi

Im a mum of a 4 1/2 month old bueautiful baby boy.
I have just started a bridging course to gain entry in to uni. I have to do an oral presentation and im doing it on being a parent.
I start off by saying .....
Happiness
Fear
Awe
Wonder
Admiration
Amazement

These are all the feelings that consume me when I look at my son. Some times its so overwhelming that I feel I could burst.
I don’t think anyone can ever prepare you for becoming a parent they can try to explain what it will be like but you really have no idea until it happens to you

I would love for some input from other people on their experiences/feelings.........

ngdawg

Happiness-that everything I worked for and aspired to literally came to life in two minutes.
Fear-that my life had now irrevocably changed forever. That I wouldn't know what to do. That I would somehow do harm.
Awe-that what started out as a blip on a screen came out with two perfect arms, two adorable feet, the sweetest face and could fill a heart just by being.
Wonder-at how I got so damned lucky. At whether I was worthy of this. At whether I'd be any good at it.
Admiration-for their perfection.
Amazement-at what they do when they do it. At their interactions with each other, long before singles interact with others. At their responses to me, because, By Gawd! I'm a MOM!

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The_Jazz

As you can see from my signature, I'm pretty new to this, but the bonus is that all those emotions are still right at the surface.

I felt a lot of joy watching my son being born, cleaned up and handed to his mother. He's sort of like a drug, and being here at work means that I've got a bit of the shakes. I can't wait to get home and hold him again, even though it means that I'm back on diaper detail.

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vanblah

My daughter is 4 years old. I never thought I'd have kids. Not because I didn't want them ... I was just indifferent. Then it happened.

Now I can't imagine why I never thought about having kids in the first place. It is probably the most overwhelming thing I've ever felt. I am totally in awe every time I see her.

doodlebird

disbelief.
i never believed that i was capable of loving another human as much i love my son. it is a love so immense, it seems as though it could not possibly grow any larger. and yet it does... daily.

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doodle

basmoq

bridging?
uni?

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Chamaeleontidae

Proud - Very proud of the little girls that they are, and proud of the fact that half of the genes are from me (all be it the silly half)
Amazement - Just when you think you know what they are capable of, they expand their knowledge and take something to the next level
Patience - I want them to grow up, but don't want to miss their growth
Innocence - Mine and theirs, how little I really know when peered though their eyes.
Love - The amount of which they give, and the unending abundance that I have to share
Laughter - Together, from watching and sharing, and just driving them nuts...
Obligation - My scion, my responsibility to nurture, protect, mentor
Nervous - What will the future hold, Am I doing the right things, How to protect them...

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spindles

there are also some downsides like:
tired - I never realised how much I loved sleeping in, until I couldn't do it anymore
pain - being headbutted, kicked in the nuts and have trucks "driven" into your foot
repetition - hearing the person in the back of the car saying tme same word over and over and over and (repeat endlessly) does get to be rather grating.

these just counterpoint the upsides:
awe - how quickly they learn to do things, whether it is stacking blocks on top of one another or saying words.
smiles - nothing beats the "that is my daddy/mummy" smile from a toddler

plus all the others things people have already mentioned

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tecoyah

All there is, in life I see
reflected in this babys eyes
a better man I try to be
a temper for my childrens cries
that simple smile so small and free
innocent of future lies
reminds me who I want to be
Babies brighten up our lives

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maleficent

Bridging Courses are short intensive courses designed for students about to enter a degree, where they do not meet the assumed knowledge requirements, or where they feel uncomfortable with their preparation for university study. Bridging courses teach to an introductory level only, and assist in bridging the gap between school and university level study
annoying shortened form of the word University - primarily used in the UK and Australia - it's made it's way over to this side of the pond too

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spindles

threadjack
actually, we Aussies will shorten everything - if you find this annoying wait until you have a full conversation with one of us

end threadjack

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maleficent

I spent enough time in Australia - that i think your shortening of everything - and adding an ie on to it is kinda adorable-- - but adorable -- but I drew the line at bikers being called bikies and truckers being called truckies... kinda emasculates them...

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TotalMILF

Every time I look at my son an overwhelming sense of calm sweeps over me. The second I pick him up and hold him in my arms, and he nestles his little head in the curve of my neck, I just know that it's right. He's my son, I'm his mom, and that's the way it's meant to be. It's perfect:-)

And, of course, I'm completely terrified. I'm scared shitless because I know that I can't always be there to protect him, that he is vulnerable, that he WILL get hurt... it's horrifying. Ugh, I don't want to think about it...

Meditrina

There are alot of emotions that come to the surface on a day to day basis when you have children. For example, today I went from being proud of my 9 yr old daughter for helping me in the kitchen, to frustrated at same child for not getting dressed when told, to worried as my 3 yr old son fell out of the car as he was trying to get out, relieved to see that he was ok. I love my children and would do anything in my powers for them. I cannot imagine my life without them, even on the days when I am most frustrated. I love watching them grow and yet, sad, it is happening so fast. They are both so different and I enjoy seeing each of them try to do the same thing in a different way. I love how I can do my fingernails with my daughter and then wrestle with my son. and then, we all paint pictures and do crafts together.

I want to thank you for this thread. I was having a rough weekend. This has put it all in perspective. Made me think and forget the frustrations of today. Now I wish I could do the weekend over. I will learn from this and make tomorrow a better day.

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ClostGoth

Might I add fulfilling to the list? I find that successfully caring for my kids (and even my foster kids) brings a great sense of rightness that I can't ascribe to anything else. And there is something very calming, almost sleepy, about snuggling with a baby and rocking them. Even more so when it's your own child and you're probably also exhausted on top of everything... My eldest is 9, and it still constantly amazes me at how fast he's grown. It seems like yesterday he was a wailing infant and I had NO clue what to do with him! I also have a 6yr old and a 3yr old; all three are beautiful, healthy, brilliant, sweet boys and I wouldn't trade the last ten years of child bearing and rearing for anything else on the planet.

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