ShaniFaye

I wrote this not long after meeting Dave....Im always kind of shy about sharing stuff I've written, but anyway here you go

Once I asked God to give me man
To stand by my side and be my right hand
Someone who was so right for me I would know
That he was the right one as soon as we said hello

I spent many years looking and never once found
The one to whom I'd want to be bound
The sparks that were there were never filled my soul
It was never ALL there, I would get parts but never a whole

Or maybe it was more than my fair share
What more could I possibly need
Than someone who would love and take care of me

I changed my definition of love
To fit what I found
Something that I thought was solid and sound

I decided what I wanted
Was not meant to be
And there was no one out there
Who would ever be the other me

So I took the one who did his best
The one that so far was better than the rest
I tried to give him the parts of me that hadn't died
And to him I thought I'd be forever tied

I settled into a life that wasn't my own
Doing what others wanted
And reaping what I had sown
Convincing myself that what I wanted never mattered
And letting my heart become bruised and battered

I had thought I had lost the best parts of me
And I settled into life thinking that what I had wanted
was not meant to be

I never doubted God
But I came to think that my plan was not his own
And as trusting as him as I'd always been
I let my wants alone

I gave up everything to please and provide
Always finding a way to hide
I gave up the real me
To be what I was expected to be

Just when I'm thinking is this all there is
And that I would be forever his
Out of my darkness with nothing I could do
I opened my eyes and there was you

We hadn't spoken, we hadn't met
But there you were calling me from the net
You wrote to me one day
And hello was all you wanted to say

My needed hello from years gone by
Was waiting for me just to say hi
I knew from that moment on
That what I'd wanted had never been gone

You came to me with love in your heart
And I knew immediately we'd never part
There was never a moment that I didn't know
You were the one God had made for my own

We talked and talked and came to find
That we were exactly two of a kind
Two halves to make a whole
And that we shared the same heart and soul

We knew each other so well, inside and out
And for either of us there was no doubt
That god had made you and me
So that we could be the us we needed to be

All the things we had for years forsaken
Were standing before us ready to be taken
A love so powerful and great and grand
That we knew together we could always stand

With you my life can be nothing but complete
Because you are everything I will ever need
I give to you my body and soul
Because you are the one to make them whole

I can do anything with you by my side
Thank you for resurrecting everything that died.

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K-Wise

We all can relate to that. I haven't gotten where you are just yet but it's always nice to read about regardless. Good job!

Asta!!

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It ain't goodbye, it's see ya later! I'll miss you guys! - Asta!!

amonkie

Shani, that sent goosebumps down my spine as I read... I'd love to see you share more! Thanks for letting us see your beautiful poetic soul

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Calling from deep in the heart, from where the eyes can't see and the ears can't hear, from where the mountain trails end and only love can go... ~~~ Three Rivers Hare Krishna