*Nikki*

Broken down life

Close your eyes this one last time
Remember how it feels to touch and to breathe
Remember my voice and how it feels to slide inside of me
Take me hard and take me fast
Take me slow and make it last
I like it when you go down inside my soul
I like to feel you slipping and barely letting go
I want to take you to the minute before this happened
Whenever it was that you realized that you couldn’t make me happy
You pull out in time and I lay there waiting….
The tears are lingering then slowly dripping
You tear me apart without knowing the pain
I hate you, I love you are one in the same
I wish I had never let me complicate you
I want you, I need you, but which part is the truth
I see him sitting on the end of my bed
I taste him in my mouth and I slowly swallow the regret
He’s kissing me now and I am letting him have me
Taking me deeper and deeper until
I look up again and now he is standing
Walking away and leaving me crying
Never understanding what he is leaving here dying
How I have to pick up the things that he left behind
Or maybe he was never here, and maybe I was blind
I watch him leaving and I know that needing
Isnt enough to bring him back to me
I take off the mask and brush my hair
I look in mirror and try not to stare
I don’t know this girl on the other side
Who is she, and what does she hide?
I touch her fingers, and trace her lips
And I can’t help but notice the sadness behind her eyes
I wish I could fix her broken down life

redravin40

This one was a kick in the teeth the first time I read it and it still has that effect today.
Nikki, you have a talent that is well worth developing.
This poem is amazing and works on so many levels.
Thanks again for sharing.

Somenosuke

My goodness. I'm speechless..... Oh my. I think I'm at a loss for words because not only can I relate, but it.. hmm. Very good.

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Atropos4

being as tired as i am right now.....that moved me ...honestly...i have tears in my eyes ....you are talented ....straight from the soul

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J.R.V.A.

Nice.

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rogue49

Beautiful & sad
Very visual, the emotions portrayed are vivid.
And the flow of the work pulls you along, very smooth.

An incredible work, you have a talent.
And I'm not just saying that
I have admiration for this
Sincerely.

little limey

This is the best poem I've read on this board so far.
And I like your avatar.

Chug

That was a very moving poem.
It's got a very nice pace and ryhtem to it, and very visual.

*Nikki*

Your deepest desire, Your worst sin
You saw me today
You let me in
I am there standing in the shadows
I am the darkest corner of the room
I am grief like you have never felt
I am saddness, I am gloom
That little slice of silence that you just can't hear
This is me, I am fear
I am every doubt that you have inside
I give you nothing
I take it all for free, I am hate, I am greed
How can you search and never find
The yearning fire within this core
I am here to make you take
This life that you thought you loved more then me
Soon you will understand and soon you will see
There is nothing darker that you will ever need
The sun left just as I came walking
An image so distant the angels stopped talking
Their wings broke and they fell from the sky
The wind stopped wispering and telling it's lies
The end of time suddenly came and listened
The tears kept falling
The moonlight glistened
Just when you thought that I was gone
I come back haunting you
I was here all along
I am romance, I am dreams
I am the pain inside your screams
Never think you can be free
I am everywhere you will hope to be
I am anger, I am need
The indifference you will never understand
I am the razor cutting your hand
I am the one watching you bleed
I laugh as you slowly turn white
Watching you die
Turns me on like never before
Seeing the color drain from your skin
I suck it out, I am the sin
I bite the wound that will take your life
Draining you slowly of all of your spite
I walk away with the last of your heart beating
The love
The intensity
All retreating

rogue49

A beautiful darkness...

I don't know if you meant this Nikki but I get the imagery of a soulless vampire,
but at the same time it's a deeper meaning of life and its more somber moments.

Maybe this is where the concept of "vampires" came from
as with anything from the past, it was a combination of
abstract ideas, tradition and local history & culture.

An entity that draws out your soul, your heart, your blood
in the blackest of night with illusionary romance but no compassion.
This represents the drain you feel by betrayals of life & people.
Your memories of warmth & promise, only to now have faded,
leaving your heart, your soul empty.

And like in the stories of these creatures, they are defeated by the light.
So meaning, you have to remember to hope & love,
in your heart, in your soul.
Feel your blood flowing, the life.
And with this you will defeat the darkness.

This is how I interpreted your compelling poem.
Very deep, excellent imagery

Thank you for sharing, I get a lot out of this.

i8one2

Once given of my all, you betrayed me, you lied and words of depth you gave me, were as well.

My inner gift that I had presented to you were my loves truth to you, you stepped on it all, so why do I still think of you?

The times when my gift was given and share were real, but, now I release you and your vision from within me.

You will fade away and never again have my gift.
I was true, and and that truth you will never have again...The lies you spoke to me are now your lies, all alone.

You have pained me enough, now its your turn.

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scarebearjinx

wow, i got caught up in that. a sense of pleasure and pain come together only to tear away life for those that come to close.

Angel

NIKKI... Your writing humbles me.
Thank you for sharing.

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*Nikki*

One Last Day

There were only seconds left in your eyes
I held you close
You watched me cry
I saw your soul so dimly burning
A light just about to fade
An unimaginable yearning
I knew the time had come to loose you
To give you up
To leave you here
Once again I look back and see
Years and years of memories
Times when I took every second we had
For granted
Your breath grows shallow
And soon it fades
Take me with you, steal this pain
I see the light mingling in the dark
I kiss your lips
Your touch is breaking me apart
One last time I beg you to feel
Please
I would give everything
To know what's real
You are not dying but leaving me still
A fate worse then death
An eternity alone
To think upon this
To wander the unknown
I take you in my arms and pull you close
I beg you to see what surrounds us both
Just barely holding on you manage a sigh
A gentle push
A forgotten lie
Mere moments left now until you leave
I hope you will understand
Why I cannot grieve
How can I be sad over nothing I have lost
At last
You are gone now
You've taken away
Feelings I'll never have
Words I'll never say
Tossing the dirt onto your grave
I give you
One last look
One last day

ARTelevision

coming to know you through your words is all I have here.
your truth makes it worthwhile, just as it is.
Thanks Nikki...

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-wishing you the very best in happiness,

lebell

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scarebearjinx

i haven't been that touched by someones words like that in a long time. that was deep and meaningful.

redravin40

So often words can't touch
the heady mix that emotions bring
your expressions have reached
the pinnacle of true voice

thank you NiKKi

Angel

Struggling through the pains I always find it most difficult to pen my feelings. You have done a beautiful job guiding us through your emotions.
Keep writing NIKKI, it cleanses the heart and soul.

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i8one2

From a a bulb planted in the fall, in the spring it grabs a peek and waits for the warming glow of sunshine. The hardest of the cold earth in which it was planted, softens with time, and the bulbs becomes even more beauty than the picture. All it took was time, rays of warmths and a little nurturing...With hardness,darkness and ice, comes a new season of life.

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"Nothing That Gives Pleasure is Bad"

Quality is for those who know
what they want and are at peace with what they have.

"S/M is about emotion; the erotic tension between my impulse toward something and my resistance against it."-- Virginia Barker

*Nikki*

Vanity

Behind her I am so strong
You look at her and don't realize
That I am here
Hiding inside
You only see her beauty
While mine goes unclaimed
When all along it was me shining though
A face with no name
You look at me
You can't help but think desire
You don't stop to wonder at all
Who this woman is
What does she require
Her hair and skin so soft and tangible
She draws you closer with her charms
Until you feel her daggers
She can almost do no wrong
Nothing is ever to much
You beg
You yearn
Just to claim her touch
She uses her words to lure you in
She tells you everything you ever wanted to hear
She guides you with smiles
She saddens you with tears
Please she begs
I need you near
What if you lost her?
What would you do?
Would you take it all for granted
Knowing she lost you too?
Her touch a drug you can't live without
Her kiss a feeling
Intense beyond your control
She's giving in to not letting go
You see the outside
When inside she is dying
You tell her you love her
She knows
Your lying
You don't know enough to say
That word
You don't know what it means
To slowly
Loose control
She will take you there
Then she will let you go
It's late she says
So she's leaving
On your knees begging
Unbearable needing
For what is walking out that door
Isn't just a feeling
There is just one more thing she tires to tell you
A sound barely escaping her lips
You never quite catch it though
So
You remember her
Before you can forget
That way you can't say you have never had
Something so pure
Within your grasp
An Angel
A Devil
Whatever it is that
Just transpired
Within seconds though
The moment
Expires

i8one2

One must be strong in manners not visible.

For only the giver of gifts strengths, one holds, can the receiver have your equal strengths to truly except and nurture them.

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"Nothing That Gives Pleasure is Bad"

Quality is for those who know
what they want and are at peace with what they have.

"S/M is about emotion; the erotic tension between my impulse toward something and my resistance against it."-- Virginia Barker

rogue49

The Succubus, one must be wary of her seductions...

But with the true eye & kind ear
You can always see the to the heart & soul
through the illusions.

Those visions are always the most valuable.
Those experiences always unregrettable.

Sometimes you just have to walk that path.
Through the fog
And though might stumble, you get up, brush off, and move on with purpose.
To get through the illusion, to your true goal.

Because even though your sword might be dull, your intent is true
To defeat the tests along the way, to your true destination.

But the wise acknowledges the trips & challenges in the path,
And realizes that these had a purpose too.

Thank you for the poem
Beautiful as always.

little limey

At the beginning of this poem i thought that this was about a pregnant woman or talking from the perspective of woman's egg. I'm stil not sure but I think that is not what it means. Anyway, it did help to bring a sexual tension to the poem for me since sex is what produces such beings.

*Nikki*

It is about someone letting go of a part of theirself that they didn't like.

Lebell

That can be a hard thing to do, Nikki. Hard to first discover such a thing and then hard to remove it from our core personality.

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Plummie

Beautiful.. reads like a song to me. Thanks for sharing.

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Lovely

Breath-taking stuff! What can I say. I'm definately gonna read these a few more times.. A hundred times.

Eowyn_Vala

I loved it! Part of it did remind me of a vampire, but part of it spoke deeper and I can relate. It is beautifully written! I will definately come back to read it again.

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Realizm

Great stuff, printing this one out so I can read it more often.

*Nikki*

Just where you begin

Running my hands over your skin
Each movement you make
Drawing me in
Seeing you smile is worth
Every tear that I have cried
Having you here
Awakens
Every dream and desire
With your arms around me
I can do anything
With your love surrounding me
A rebirth begins
In such a short time
Our destiny has been planned
I wonder who is looking
Who is pulling the strings
Or is it just fate
That put you in my hands
Hearing your voice
I sigh just knowing
Kissing your lips
More then I care bare
Every second apart
Torture
All that I can spare
This is what I have been waiting
For so long to find
Images becoming reality
No longer defined
Take me with you
Wherever it is that you go
I will be your
Best friend
All that you know
I will give you the freedom
Anything you demand
From me there is nothing
You will ever have to hide
Take these words
Put them in your heart
Hear them spoken
Whenever
We are apart
Feel my lips
Lingering
Just where you begin
My lover
My partner
My friend

rogue49

Beautiful as always.
The Rebirth - I just had mine too.
With the end there is always a new beginning.
Hope from nothing
Thank you for sharing.

Angel

Thank you NIKKI for sharing this. It sure gives a brighter look of tomorrow!

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riptide4070

I'm a little emotional right now from watching a movie that got to me. Your poem is beautiful, I was in the moment, and tears welled up in my eyes. If you have someone dear to you, then I'm happy for you. I'm still waiting for my special someone. When I find her, trust me, I'll never let go.....

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riptide4070

Very dark and imaginative like a demon grinning as it takes your soul...I like the imagery and choice of words. Very deep and beyond my writing skills.

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riptide4070

My stomach dropped while I read this. Very provocative, intense, hardcore.I just don't have the words but yours had me.....

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riptide4070

POWERFUL!!! I'm always captivated by your words, they are...delicious!

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Angel

Second time around every bit as powerful as the first!
You've got what it takes sweetie! Keep it up!

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