RenaissanceII

Not The Victim anymore.....

You were?!?

Yes indeed,
I was a victim,
of my reactions
going all the way back,
to when I was a wee one,
when a scream, a holler, a slap
forced me to hide myself in a dark place
that I thought was safety,
but was just dark and empty and lonely
and echo-y,
away from more screaming and hollering and slapping,

But also away from the light and the joy and the fun,
of trying and not succeeding
but having fun anyway,
and of trying and succeeding
and having fun then too...

This being a victim has hidden me
from myself family and friends
and has taken so much energy.

NO MORE.

Not being the Victim means forgiving others who did things that I took,
to the best of my ability at the time,
wrong...
It means forgiving myself for reading it in that manner...
It means not beating myself up
for living my life up to this point,
for my failures or
my successes,
as a victim...

I Am learning a new way ,
a new path,
a new hope....

I can now understand (and live)
what is meant by
"Happy, joyous, and free"
Because
I Am not a victim
anymore.

__________________
And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
Anais Nin


I Wish You Well.