J.R.V.A.

As I lay sleeping the lights dance around in my mind.

I dream of the city where I was once born,
And wonder why I'm still alive

I look to the clouds to find me some peace,
But all I can see is the rain.

I think of this dream, it may be a nightmare,
And hope for the morning to come soon.

The wretched road I like to lay my tread on,
seems somehow to tread upon me.

I try to escape and whistle a bit,
as my cracked lips put forth but a spurt.

I wake from the dream, and find I'm still sleeping,
The twisted humor I've become.

Alas as I float, throughout my hard slumber,
I cant seem to find the way out.

I think that I will rest my mad mind
and sleep for a moment or two

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Angry people holler at me
I wish I could just leave this place

I holler back and I get angry
Why wont they all just leave me be.

I sap my energy and it saps me back
I hit the wall and hurt my finger.

And scream at what a mess I am.

I yell and wonder where it gets me
It gets me somewhere where I run.

I run into a padded room,
And holler till I can't no more.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Angel

A lot of conflicting emotion bottled up in these words.
Amazing how we can reflect our deepest emotions through poetry.
Keep 'em coming.

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In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

little limey

I like the little details in the first poem.

J.R.V.A.

Thanks guys..

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

A Fools Advice

I spoke to myself so the answer'd be clear
A fools advice given from the monarch

I listened intently and heeded the words
They change when it suits me as I allow

I'm told of a place that lies not to far
A place of green grass and troubles afew

I stroll to the meadow to rest my stiff bones
And bask in the sun till I feel the heat

I drift off to sleep and dream of the night
When darkness is clear as midday sun

The moon smiles at me and welcomes arrival
I'm here for a while to see whence I've come

I maunder to earth as light's sensation grows
A knock from behind startle's me back

It boggles my mind to realize the day
Comes back when I least expect it to do

The mistakes of another have never given me knowledge
I've learned from the man that is running the show

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

The Answer

As I step over the bodies, the night is approaching.
I look at the faces, horror in their eyes.
Blood runs down the dirty street below.
I stop for a moment to ponder my plight.
Why am I living while all others gone?
A sound from afar means I'm not alone.
I walk to the noise and find another life.
We glance for a moment, no words come between.
Grasping the hand we walk from this village,
A new start today, we head for the hills.
Thankful for life? Or wanting the same,
as everything we know, lies smoking and gone.
As she looks at me, she asks in a whisper,
help me she says, my answer is there.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

The Smile

The blood drips out of my hard cracked blisters.
I can barley walk anymore the pain is so intense.
The heat from the sun is exhausting my body.
The last drop of water was drunk hours ago.
These hills I call mountains are not so forgiving.
The sand makes the walking harder to bear.
She looks up at me and squeeze's a smile.
For now I'll keep walking till we find some shelter.
The smile gives me life,that I thought was gone.
I turn to see trees far up ahead.
I hope that there real and not an Illusion.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Hope

Raindrops glisten with rainbows of light,
searing reflections the colors are bright.
I look out the window the lights are a blur,
leaving this town my thoughts are of you.
The back seat is cold, I turn and sit still,
the tears are a flowing, despair's all I feel.
Lost for the moment, no smile can I find,
am I going crazy, have I lost my mind?
Then slowly I think, maybe theres hope,
memories live on, maybe I'll cope.
A little smile comes, the tears all subside,
inside my heart, is where you reside.

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

The Dirt

The sun hides it's warmth behind a dark cloud
The cloud drips it's tears on my face
I look to the sky to find a small ray and all I can get is a gloom
I sit on a hill and wish for a time when you were the only one for me
I wonder whats held within this cold man, why nothing can permeate within
Alone on this dirt, my shovel in hand, I start this long day of my digging
The hole I am seeking, must be dug deep, the girth wider than I am tall
I've come here to bury the love lost inside, today is the day for beginning
I dig for a while, then wipe my wet brow, alone in the dirt I am crying
Leaving the list, of deeds I've done wrong, I stand with my shovel beside me
As I look toward, the stream thats run dry, I see a small trickle forthcoming
The sun peeks it's head, from behind the dark cloud, I start to replace the soft earth.
And bury the shovel, with my bare hands, and stomp on the dirt till it's hard
Then wander towards the sound of my life, calling me back to the day

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

The way

I walked for miles in search of home, a place to rest my weary bones
I looked around and wandered here, and stopped to shed a couple tears
I wanted what I could'nt have, I wished for times that wer'nt so sad
Alone at last,It's what I wanted, at least I thought, my words were haunted
The purdah of my chosen life, it cuts my heart like a dull knife
Scared to think I have a friend, empty hearts until the end
Alas I think I know the way, It's here at home I think I'll stay
My home for me, Is in my heart, I think I'll try a brand new start
If evil men can change there tune, maybe my heart can also bloom
I'll try to try , a different road, and let love come into my home
And if this works, this simple plan, then you will see a different man

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

STILLNESS

Stillness settles on the tired horizon.
Dust becomes dormant as wind disappears.
Where are the waves that engulfed life?
Rolling across the grassy plains.
Ending where time rests it’s head.
Mocking the rest of the waters sweet sound.
Swallowed by fates restless hand.
Gone is the existence that we once knew.
One left to stand in the fire.
Who is this person that you have become?
Alone in the crowd of humanity.
Awake in the still of the night.
Stillness consumes me.

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Questions

My indefatigability to breathe new air has left me fractured, worn and tired.
Resiliency of my thick skin has kept me traveling onward.
Sessions lessons paved the way and brought me here to comprehend entity.
A soul left dawdling, in the dust remembering times spent wasted.
What of the future, is in my hands?all or none, whenever you ask.
Questions remain through questions asked answered again a different way.
What of this life? Ask me not now.Seek your own soul to decide

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

The Fairest Maiden

The fairest maiden of all, smiles as she drops the petal,
Floating slowly till touching the babbling brook far below.
He loves me she whispered,
As the last rose is bared.
Locked in this castle the dreams dance inside,
A voice from the past she wishes not heard.
The knight not so shining on this drizzling day,
The steps to this tower are steep and restricted.
The life and the love is waiting for her,
Another whose heart the petals float for.
The brook of her life is where real love rests.
The roses are gone, the brook is still there,
The love waits for her, no sadness it has.
The real knight is waiting to bring her new flowers.

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Octobers Charade

We run through the waterfall, our bodies all wet.
We sit on the grass, as the warm sun dries us.
We climb up the mountain, through craggled small trails.
We stop to rest, taking in all of Gods beauty.
As we start again, we munch as we slowly move along.
We stop at a stream, and take a long drink.
There up ahead, a soft bed of grass to lay in.
We sleep for a while, then we are startled.
A loud popping sound shatters the peace.
We jump and we run, barely seeing as we go by
our fathers’ limp body, his majestic rack fallen.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

The Gray Headed One

The sky weeps down on my tired old head.

Wrinkles of dusk drown out the light.
Soggy and laggard, I limp slowly by.

The eyes of the city are opening up,
looking for darks early slumber.

Drenched as the night is getting dark.
Seeking dry haven and respite from the nox.
Sadly none to be found here.
The tired old man inside my mind
won’t let go of the besotted dimness.

Dreams become reality when it’s what we choose.
Stars in my mind overtake moons.
Searing light dries the mood.
I wake to the brightness of life,
the gray headed one has perished.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Cause Becomes Clear

Perception of loss calls out to me,
By seeking I know I will find.

Distress is the comfort I've come to know,
Leaving kind thoughts far behind.

Unsuitable thorns twist till they bleed,
Atrocious reflections stirred round.

Infernal damnation is it what I've found,
Or fantasy's ugly kid brother?

Cause becomes clear closing my eyes,
Benevolence tries to break through.

Abhorrence runs trying to hide,
Seeking reprieve from the light.

Beatific jousts with the vile one,
Which will it be to advance?

Both will survive, the stronger of which,
Is nurtured and fed in our mind.

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Progress

I lost my struggle, then I won,conceding was my greatest victory.
The battle raged on for seasons galore,the knife twisting deeper inside.
Alive so I was, but lost in a trance,reluctant to feel what I felt.
A door was thrust open, inside my mind,revealed that for which I was searching.
A haven of life, to ease my pain,and learn how to live with myself.
Forging ahead with the smallest of steps,and leaping forward in great strides.
Becoming the person that I’d like to be,each day is a step nearer to it.
As long as I pass, this thing all around,I get what I give in return.
And smile as I plod, through this gift I call life,the dibbuk of drink will stay quelled.

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Breezy
The clouds move slowly across the bright blue sky.
Releasing a soft wetness to the flowers below.
Stretching to catch a sliver of heavens lifeblood.
They sway with the breeze dancing like swans.
A new season comes and with it the sun.
Buds become beauty as life is transformed.

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Heart

Ripped from my chest, exposed once again,
my heart lying wounded, love I can't feign.
A new knife wound opened, through scars that have healed,
bleeding and screaming, the pain is revealed.
Wanting to run, pretend it's not real,
bury the hurt, loves lost it's appeal.
Knowing I can't, been through it before,
wanting to die, just shut this damn door.
I have to walk through it, I know it for me,
the light from the cracks, won't let me be.
The anguish I'm feeling, I know will subside,
love conquers all, I know it inside.
Keep slogging along, with my chin up high,
this ache and despair, I know it will die

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Angel

Your ability to cover such a vast range leaves me in awe.
You inspire me to keep writing.
Thank you for putting your soul out here.

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In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

J.R.V.A.

I've searched my own soul to decide
The place where I want to reside

I've searched the world over tis true
Somehow all my searching's left me blue

I look to the mirror for the answer
The question I find's not relaxing

Then in blows a comfortable breeze
It rustles all of my new fallen leaves

I grab hold of hope and hold on
I think of your face and our song

I snicker and snort just a bit
My hearts not a bottomless pit

I feel it inside and I smile
We hold hands and sing for a while

Today I am happy for you
I hope you feel the same way too

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

As the day becomes night
I think of the day

The night becomes light
I wish it were dark

The dark leaves me groggy
I run to the noise

The noise hurts my ears
I turn on the light

My ears hear the switch
I close my two eyes

I flick off the switch
And wander inside

Inside it is musty
I grab for a coat

The musty old walls
Where old pictures hang

I look to the pictures
And see one of you

The one of you smiling
When one was still you

Smiling inside I walk to the light
No more I'm afraid I skip and I dance

The light holds the key
To all that I fear

The key to the door
I keep looking for

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Angel

Searching your heart and soul is what ultimately brings you to a contentment within. The answer is always there, waiting. Seek it and you find you.

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In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

J.R.V.A.

Burped from the belly
Of the bitch I call life
I swim with the sharks of doomsday

Shit out the hole
To lay in the sun
The flies of glooms darkness buzz 'round

Lower than dirt
I stink from the sun
As dastardly deeds are my ways

Scum sucking pig
Is what I've been called
I place my knife deep in your back

An asshole ?
How nice
If thats all you could cuse me of

Alone and awake
I watch for the next
Victim to fuck and abuse

Telling my self
This way is the way
Convincing me has become easy

Watch out you fuck
You might be the next
I steal from the lime light of life

Sneaking and crawling
Is what I do best
A snake dressed in inhuman skin

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Your soft hand brushes my cheek
I look to your eyes and see love
A whisper and breath, tickles my ear
A smile starts me loving this place
A soft gentle heart, given from you
Is beauty from within that is real
A lover of life, is what you are to me
Your life is the meaning of love

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Angel

I read these last two and they are SO different I almost chuckle. Until I absorb the second, and then I sigh.
Wonderful work as always.

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In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

QuasiMojo

WoW dude,HEeeeeaVy. is that really you, S?
Flirting with the dark side a bit are we?
Liberating isn't it?
a bit different from your other writing...

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AzAbOv ZoBeLoE

J.R.V.A.

>>>>>>>>>>

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Yes we are, and yes it is S
Thanks quasi, I have been wondering wher eyou were.
I hope everything is well for you.
Thanks for the reply, I was beginning to think nobody read any of my stuff
Have a good night

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Angel

*Looks at my replies and suddenly feels like a nobody*
Just kidding!

This last one was, ahem, well, intriguing? Rather frisky are we?

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In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

J.R.V.A.

I'm sorry angel, I didnt mean it like that. How stupid of me. Yes, you are somebody, and somebody wonderful.I meant nobody else besides A couple of people, which I should have said. I really appericate the People that read my stuff and comment. Thanks everyone.

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

A child in want of a solid meal
No shoes or coat to stop the shivering
A look of pain that stabs my heart
Eyes burn my soul and wont take flight
No want for toys or even candy
Just love or hugs could make him happy
He cries for someone that is near
The person he seeks does'nt hear
The innocence lost can ne'r be found
A life of dreams that wont be seen
He wishes for a warm blanket
The boy of four is lost without it
Daddys gone and mommy too
You'll stay with auntie till there through
No talking back or acting spoiled
He sits and waits to find his home
He wonders why the others tease him
Because his clothes are always torn
The boy of four is learning things
That take him places he need not be
The youngster knows that tonites the nite
That mom and dad he wont see fight
And as he lays his head to rest
A warm blanket makes him feel blessed

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

A little girl holds mommys hand

Todays the day of many plans

Mommys going to take her shopping

The malls and stores thay are a calling

Together they will take the day

The love of mommy and her baby

She gets a brand new pair of shoes

Some pants a shirt and underclothes

They walk together hand in hand

Smiling brightly oh this is grand

Mommy loves her little girl

She skips and does a little twirl

A gentle hand to guide this child

The love they share makes their hearts smile

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Angel

You know I was just teasing you. No need to apologize, I knew what you meant.

Your last two are a great example of how completely different the lives of our innocent children of the world can be.
Great work of the heart.

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In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

J.R.V.A.

Sunshine speckles my wintrey skin
The warmth resides deeply into my soul
A kiss then a shower of warm summer rain
Dancing through puddles and laughing out loud
The summer brings beauty and flowers to hold
A meadow of grass to bask and enjoy
A new days begun the coldness is gone
The air is abuzz with life and of love
The season of everything growing again
The sun and the moon together as one

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Angel

A wonderful ending to a good piece of work. I like these last two lines... a lot.

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In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

J.R.V.A.

Words
What words can describe the feeling I have
Words alone can do me no good
I try and let out and no words will come
Words fill a page but they can't fill my heart
A river of tears for the right words not spoken
Words that were said were hurtful and sad
I look to my brain for the words that I need
To bring back the smile the words took away
Words

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Angel

So sorry you are feeling this pain.
Chin up my friend. You have tomorrow.

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In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

J.R.V.A.

Eyes tearing as I watch my small child,
Enjoying the day no cares to be found.

Happy to be a kid playing house,
A laugh and a smile reminds me of past.

We wrestle and roll and tickle each other,
Her eyes spark like fire and warm her old father.

The love I have for her is happy and free,
My baby is smiling and loving her daddy.

The tears are of joy, that roll down my cheek,
Content to be holding the life of another.

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart