What do you do when you're so bored you're ready to die?
 

I say die, not kill myself. I do need/want to finish my book. That's about the main thing keeping me going. But disease has imprisoned me in my own body. Well not quite so bad as that but close. Anyways, I got drunk tonight. Am now. Side note...I'm amazed I can still type ~50 words a minute yet I can barely walk. Anyways, what do you do when you've become so bored you're ready to die? This isn't depression either, I've got a degree and have experienced it before and this isn't it. Right right now, this moment, I want to connect with more people. I called my friends and they were busy or not answering (one friend just had a kid). Especially connect in a sexual freedom kind of way I wouldn't normally be able to sober (I have sever anxiety problems).

Fuck, it just makes me so angry atm. I feel so trapped and imprisoned. All I want is to be free.

PS holy shit, I don't think I blinked through writing that entire thing.

Go buy an $80 guitar, and then learn to play it. It will eat away hours of time. Days, even.

I already play 3 musical instruments including guitar. :( this isn't your run of the mill episode.

On a deep level I want to connect with people but they only turn away in fear. And this skating on the surface of everything has gotten so so so so droll.

When I am really board (with three kids that does not happen that often) I come here to talk to people. I also quilt. At night I clean my apartment and believe me with three kids and a slob as a husband its a real job. But it helps me clear my mind.

So go connect with people. It's not hard.

"Hi, my name is Zeraph and I like your pendant/sweater/ear lobes. What do you do for a living/for fun/with 3 dead hookers in the trunk of your car?"

Connect'd!

at this moment, I can't drive (too drunk) and have exhausted my options. I do plan to try and connect more in the future though. the problem is getting to the places before my anxiety disorder kicks in (since I can't take medication whilst driving).

But the other half of the problem is that few are on my wavelength so to speak. While the tfp may be accepting of kink, most aren't . Not sure yet how I should get around that.

masturbate.
in all seriousness.
it releases endorphins and lets
me relax enough to think straight.

my current answer: scarification! Weee finally did it. Tried for a circle on my forearm. It was quite bloody, more so than I thought. I used a razor and then flour to pack the wound. Its just now drying as I write. can't wait to see the results. I took pics but they were bloody, not sure I should post em on the tfp.

less artistic than a tattoo but more satisfying in its own way.

What just happened here?

Take a short walk outside if not for just five minutes. This funk has to wear off so you can be productive again. Failure to do so will extend the funk and it doesn't matter what you want, what matters is you sort out what you need first!!

I'll usually sift through my old negatives and pick some out to scan. Working with those always helps to fire my creative juices and motivates me to grab my camera and go shoot.


or, what noodle said........

woah woah woah.. you're doing your own scar art??

that should be left to professionals.

unless you're a professional, you're nothing more than a cutter at this point. that's certainly not going to help your connections problem. wtf.

I watched an episode of 'Mental' last night. There was a kid on there who was infatuated with amputees. He started with a toe. Then fingers. But he never felt truly whole until he finally cut his hand off.

So I'm glad you're feeling better.

I don't know if this would even be a interest, but I have a subscription to realarcade.com , no I'm not a employee or trying to promote them. It's 4.94 a month, and I get a free credit for which ever game I decide I want at the time. It's kept myself busy and some of the games kept my daughter amused this past summer. It's just a little silly thing I do that takes up some of my time.

The other, have you tried crafting? Needlepoint, knitting, crocheting, candle making, candy making with molds? There's this one craft where you get these little plastic sheets of boxes to thread in a pattern. I'm not sure if that'd be called needlepoint as well. How about buy figurines to paint? Christmas village houses, or others to give as presents if you don't want to keep for birthdays, Christmas, or even a get well gift.

I'm probably have not been too helpful with this. But cutting just seems a bit .... well .... painful as well as problematic if it gets infected.

When i am too bored AND too drunk, i put some of my favourite music on and sing along to it till my throat aches.

But, never felt so bored that i would cut myself up! So, probably i have no idea what you are going through.

A few times i did get into the car and drove around. DUI checks are kinda rare where i come from!

Just a little off-topic here. I'm trying to find a good slide/negative scanner. Do you have a recommendation?

I used to have a Nikon Coolscan that was only for slides and negs. Now I use a four or five year old Epson 3200 pro flatbed. It came with all the holders for film, and really does a fine job. I've scanned 35mm negs into photoshop, and printed them to 16x20 without any problem.

Chores
Go to the store and browse/buy random stuff
Rub one out (sometimes two if I'm extra bored or horny)
Nap

Steal from the homeless.

Go to sleep.

Thanks, I'll check it out.

oh, and Google Images gets me by.
Search some word or phrase like 'ugly tramp.' You'll get laughs like this:

http://img188.imageshack.us/img188/1...licallove9.jpg

or

http://img188.imageshack.us/img188/3...0229974806.jpg

wooÐs, I love you.

I quite like that "tramp stamp". Hell, it's better than the butterfly/rose/tribal/bunch of swirly shit that you normally see.

That was a great idea. So much so that I went straight away to try it out. I did Ugly Tramp, and saw what you did. I did Cool Cars, then just cool, which made me think to search on rock & roll . Kind of stream of consciousness Googling.... Before I knew it I had spent several minutes without noticing the time.

Oh, the last search I did, on a lark was 'Canadian' (of course eh?) and amongst the multitude images of our flag was this rather telling portrayal of our national stereotype:

http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d1...eer_fridge.jpg


It cracked me up....

When I'm bored it's nice to go for a little walk and collect wildflowers.
Or organize something: Developing new folding methods for clothing feels productive when you find a new way that allows you to place more items in a drawer.

I'm glad I could help :).

Google Images is great for anytime. I keep weird hours and find myself alone and bored often when it's really late.

I'm certain if I were able to suggest this to the op quicker than I did, he wouldn't be donning a circular gash on his arm that will last his lifetime.

"Wow, what happened there?"
"Oh I was insanely bored on the night of August 15th, 2009."

Write. Write your anger, your sorrow, your pain, your abuse, your mistakes, your failings...write mon ami, you will feel better.

At age seven my daughter came to me in the middle of school holidays and complained that she was bored. I asked her if she had been bored yesterday and she said no!. I then asked what was the only difference between yesterday and today. She said "me!" So who is the only person that can fix it, I asked. Again she replied "me". I said, "right! in my experience, only boring people stay bored." She was seven (admittedly a pretty smart seven), she is now twenty one and since that day she has never said to me "I'm bored". Read between the lines.

I read, and then read some more, and then get a new book.

I have some weird ones:

1) con people: not for their money, but conversation. Strike one up and see how far and how long you can bullshit.

2) apply for ridiculous jobs: "hi Im a 6'4 245 pound male; are there Any positions available as a tanning assistant?"

3) paint a wall in your house

4) go shopping for ridiculous things: see 2.

Pretending/conning makes you lose yourself in the exercise. Try riding public transit to overhear hilarious conversations. Etc.

Rape, pillage, and burn down the village.

I read fortunes or talk to folks. You can talk to me and get a free fortune telling done on AIM @ deadwaterlily

I go up to my family and friends and just say ANYTHING on my mind. I even sing and they are just weirded out by how random I can be. Not "lol OMG I'm sooo random PENGUINS LOL SEE?!". But... I start random discussions with them or sing a song I love or haven't heard in YEARS. Like when I went to Disneyland when I was 5 they had a song that went like, "45 years of adventure!".. I sing that and nobody remembers it but me. And that starts a discussion about similar things.

I also have hobbies.....

I would show you all some art of mine, but my camera doesn't work anymore and most of it is lost in a file cabinet in my grandma's room. But, I have some fun stuff.

Lessee..... I'm a bitch.. so I dunno about you but I love stalking girls I dislike and finding out what horrible news they're up to nowadays. ex: The not-a-lesbian Ugly Twin had a baby with some random dude. OR Fucking junkie chick had a crosseyed midget baby with her uncle?! Scandalousssss... and gross.

Yeah.. totally rude of me but it's fun to gossip with close friends about mutual enemies. :D hehehehehheehehehe




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--get out of the house and into a new or different environment
--take a long weekend trip and just drive, with no destination
--rent a bunch of movies you've always wanted to see, but never have and have a movie marathon
--determine to stop thinking about yourself and do something for somebody else
--get a camera, even a cheap one, and go to a different town or city and take 1000 photographs--don't stop until you get to 1000