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I guess you just have to try not to be so hard on yourself man, maybe you are just confused about what your orientation is, that isnt something you should feel guilty about. Posing as a girl and using your gf's pictures was wrong, and you know that and understand that, you acted like man and at least owned up to the principle of what you did... she was mad, thats understandable, but she forgave you.
Look, you just need some perspective, it wasnt a good thing to do, but you havent seriously hurt anyone, you havent badly damaged anything... dont let yourself get so down... the fact you did that doesnt make you deranged or sick, maybe you are just curious and you went about trying to work out your feelings the wrong way.
Dont let this drag you down and destroy what you still have with your girlfriend, she sounds like a good girl and you should try and hold on to her... most people in their lives do some stupid shit, or do things that hurt someone they love when they dont think, we all make mistakes, you just have to learn from them, accept them, and try to be stronger from them... all anyone can ask is for us to always be better than the worst things that happen to us... or at least sometimes thats the best we can do.
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"Do not tell lies, and do not do what you hate,
for all things are plain in the sight of Heaven. For nothing
hidden will not become manifest, and nothing covered will remain
without being uncovered."
The Gospel of Thomas
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