Well, I have not seem him since we had that talk..
Which was when.. hmm, mid november or something like that.
Hmm, I am meant to be studying really hard this year, as I have hard and challenging subjects, such as sociology and psychology...
I hate him, I don't hate her.. even though she has done most of the pain (cos she could not see him too - and she knew EXACTLY how I felt, she denied doing wrong at all and all that)... it would help if he wasn't there, and I would feel so much at ease knowing that I got the last laugh in...
Ever since it has happend, nothing good has come from it - it's just been blow after blow, betrayel by both people, both of them lying and going behind my back blah blah.
I have no proof that he did it, but I can get people who will stick up for me and vouch for me etc...
I would so love to just get him fired and laugh so hard in his face and flip him off and tell him to get fucked..
Over all, I am a pleasent person... but I feel like losing control over this lol.. I just want to let loose with all guns blazing.
He will be out of the state when we return (2 more days) I am thinking that if I can piss him off then, then he will come back to no job or something.
Thing is, he's gone to see KoRn, Fear Factory and Static-X... perhaps he's taken her with him too... I was meant to be going with him, but he doesn't talk to me anymore etc...
It comes across that they see me as the person in the WRONG and the PROBLEM and the person that was in the way of EVERYONES HAPPINESS, I see pics of her, and know that he is there somewhere (cos taken from his place, or his car - or one of his friends places)... it get's to me... he did the whole good guy thing and went way out of his way to see her and take her out and all that..
I can't stand it, I have felt like killing him sometimes (although I never will:P) - he lives about a 15min walk from where I am, I have felt like walking up there knocking on his door and punching him in the nose.. I don't know.. any revenge would be great - him losing his job would get him out of my way and give me the last laugh.. I would love it.
I just don't know if it's called for or not.. I mean, they have been selfish (obviously)... so maybe It's my time???
I have bitten time up until now... knowing that my turn would come... and then the idea of that came into my head and straight away I thought WOOHOO!!! I can bring him down.
meh
