Here is a poem I wrote about Valentine's Day
Valentines Day
This is the day for love, for cupid, and gaudy wishes.
Heart shaped candy, strange coincidence, lingering kisses.
I'll be collapsed on our bed, head in my hands:
My failure laid before me in obscene glory. And plans
Are ruined before they've begun.
And meanwhile, outside my room, two boys play basketball
In the street. A blue car crawls passed, a woman's call
Brings a lazy cat running, a cold North wind whips
Up the street: a man stands with his hands on his hips
Glaring at the scattered litter.
Later, I go to the shop, buy bread, smile at a girl
Who is just too young to matter: within the swirl
Of self indulgent self reproach there's a life to make.
I can pretend to do it for your or my sake.
Because it’s all there is.
Dead eyes surveying a world made of equal measures
Of pain, fear and joy: sucker punched and hidden pleasures.
Only three people know that I cried in my sleep:
The hole in my life is fizzing, burning: how deep
is it? It's sucked up years