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PataQ · 04-30-2003, 07:46 PM

and carrying on from what sivo said, i've recently had an extremely strange experiance, one you may describe as meta physical, it's a long story, but cut extremely short, a woman who's been through so much bad has still come out on top, myself and her other close friends label her a miracle, she's been through so much and asks nothing in return, her best friend even describes her as an angel, i dont know anymore

up until 5 days ago i was a through and through athiest, i lived my life, and my life was governed by the law of physics, science and logic, however what i experianced a few days ago defies all that i've been taught to beleive in.

im leaving alot out here, as it's 4:30am, but she touched me, not physically, or emotionally, but what you'd describe as metaphysically.

i felt her in my chest and probing my mind, it was an amazing experiance, and then she squeezed my heart, i nearly passed out due to the rush of blood, it felt like exactly how you'd imagine somebody squeezing your heart with their hand, except for the fact there was no pain.

she was worried the minute she "saw" inside my chest, and she started to plead for me to loose some weight (im 26stone, that's around 360lbs)

she showed me where the blockages were by almost "plucking" my veins, she also plucked the face of my heart (the side facing my ribs) - where people have heart bypass operations...

that part of it was quite painful, more painful than any bout of angina i'd felt in the past (self diagnosis, but seems the most logical).

and then she called in her best friend, for reasons in her past she could never do anything other than "show" other people, especially people she cares greatly about (basically, she nearly killed somebody through complete hatred, but again, long story).

when her best friend came in, it was a most curious sensation, cold, stone cold, he entered my chest and... wow... i can still recall the feeling vividly, it was like my entire chest was flooded with ice, extremely cold, and then the next thing i know im practically on the floor after he went for my heart, i was scared out of my mind, i trust the guy, but not half as much as her, i didnt know what was going on, my heart was racing, my chest was cold....

she pulled him out in a rush... he'd healed me. he has but 1/100th of the power she has, but he still managed to heal me, since then i've been doing things i havent been able to do in years, now, obviously alot of its psychological, but i havent had a bout of the self diagnosed angina doing things that would normally give me it. i dont know what this whole things about, and why she chose me to share her gift with (she's only shared it with 3 people in her life, including me)

but i know theres something not normal about her.... i cant bring myself to say that she's an angel or a saint, i simply cant, but her best friend believes she is, i know one thing, she's got a gift, and a big one at that, she managed to keep herself alive using her gift for 45mins after her heart had stopped beating, honest to god, her medical records prove it.

and then the next night came along....

she didnt warn me this time, she just "came in"

she filled my chest with warmth again, more than the last nights (ill get onto that in a minute), then, a most bewildering feeling, i felt everything in my chest "move", it's extremely hard to describe, its almost asif everything was pushed to the walls of the chest cavity to make room, and then it came... my heart was pounding wildly, i honestly thought i was having a heart attack, it was an extremely fast beat, if you imagine the normal beep: .....beep......beep......beep....... then mine was beepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeep

i was so worried, but then, i listened
it wasnt my heart atall, or rather, it was a second heart. she'd sent me her heart beat. i cant explain it... it felt like i had 2 hearts, i could feel it beating in my chest just like my one, both pumping, each one so loudly i hear it as my 1 heart just going full pelt, but it was amazing, my whole body filled with her.... energy... i can only explain it as that... i was warm all over, but it was hotter than any fire, hotter than any molten steel at a steel works factory, it was the most intense heat you could feel, but it didnt hurt, not at all, and i wasnt perspiring, it was overwhelming, it consumed me, for 6 hours, i was in this bubble of warm listening to her heart beat with mine, it was bliss, it was this pure feeling of bliss. i dont know how to describe it, all my troubles just vanished, everything just seemed to "stop meaning anything" for those 6 hours, i didnt have a care in the world, it was amazing...

this is all i can say so far, as that was 2 nights ago (including this evening)

it's a whole new level of intimacy i experianced with an extremely close friend who means more to me than anything in this world, and who i care about with all my heart (not in any romantic way, we're just extremely close friends)

i still dont see why i deserve this honour.... im not different than the adverage joe, infact i consider myself less, i've done quite a few bad things in my life, certainly things that wouldnt get me into "heaven", but i dont know now

it's like i know nothing anymore, the universe is suddenly so much bigger, and i keep asking these questions, i cant think of anything else but that of what happend to me, it's rather disturbing, i've even found myself questioning my sanity (something i could never wish upon anybody, a most disturbing feeling).

but, i think im still sane, she's lived with it for 20 years, and so has her best friend, why does suddenly finding out make me want to bring everything in life to a hault so i can re-evaluate reality??

i just dont know anymore...

04-30-2003, 07:46 PM	#62 (permalink)
PataQ Tilted	and carrying on from what sivo said, i've recently had an extremely strange experiance, one you may describe as meta physical, it's a long story, but cut extremely short, a woman who's been through so much bad has still come out on top, myself and her other close friends label her a miracle, she's been through so much and asks nothing in return, her best friend even describes her as an angel, i dont know anymore up until 5 days ago i was a through and through athiest, i lived my life, and my life was governed by the law of physics, science and logic, however what i experianced a few days ago defies all that i've been taught to beleive in. im leaving alot out here, as it's 4:30am, but she touched me, not physically, or emotionally, but what you'd describe as metaphysically. i felt her in my chest and probing my mind, it was an amazing experiance, and then she squeezed my heart, i nearly passed out due to the rush of blood, it felt like exactly how you'd imagine somebody squeezing your heart with their hand, except for the fact there was no pain. she was worried the minute she "saw" inside my chest, and she started to plead for me to loose some weight (im 26stone, that's around 360lbs) she showed me where the blockages were by almost "plucking" my veins, she also plucked the face of my heart (the side facing my ribs) - where people have heart bypass operations... that part of it was quite painful, more painful than any bout of angina i'd felt in the past (self diagnosis, but seems the most logical). and then she called in her best friend, for reasons in her past she could never do anything other than "show" other people, especially people she cares greatly about (basically, she nearly killed somebody through complete hatred, but again, long story). when her best friend came in, it was a most curious sensation, cold, stone cold, he entered my chest and... wow... i can still recall the feeling vividly, it was like my entire chest was flooded with ice, extremely cold, and then the next thing i know im practically on the floor after he went for my heart, i was scared out of my mind, i trust the guy, but not half as much as her, i didnt know what was going on, my heart was racing, my chest was cold.... she pulled him out in a rush... he'd healed me. he has but 1/100th of the power she has, but he still managed to heal me, since then i've been doing things i havent been able to do in years, now, obviously alot of its psychological, but i havent had a bout of the self diagnosed angina doing things that would normally give me it. i dont know what this whole things about, and why she chose me to share her gift with (she's only shared it with 3 people in her life, including me) but i know theres something not normal about her.... i cant bring myself to say that she's an angel or a saint, i simply cant, but her best friend believes she is, i know one thing, she's got a gift, and a big one at that, she managed to keep herself alive using her gift for 45mins after her heart had stopped beating, honest to god, her medical records prove it. and then the next night came along.... she didnt warn me this time, she just "came in" she filled my chest with warmth again, more than the last nights (ill get onto that in a minute), then, a most bewildering feeling, i felt everything in my chest "move", it's extremely hard to describe, its almost asif everything was pushed to the walls of the chest cavity to make room, and then it came... my heart was pounding wildly, i honestly thought i was having a heart attack, it was an extremely fast beat, if you imagine the normal beep: .....beep......beep......beep....... then mine was beepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeep i was so worried, but then, i listened it wasnt my heart atall, or rather, it was a second heart. she'd sent me her heart beat. i cant explain it... it felt like i had 2 hearts, i could feel it beating in my chest just like my one, both pumping, each one so loudly i hear it as my 1 heart just going full pelt, but it was amazing, my whole body filled with her.... energy... i can only explain it as that... i was warm all over, but it was hotter than any fire, hotter than any molten steel at a steel works factory, it was the most intense heat you could feel, but it didnt hurt, not at all, and i wasnt perspiring, it was overwhelming, it consumed me, for 6 hours, i was in this bubble of warm listening to her heart beat with mine, it was bliss, it was this pure feeling of bliss. i dont know how to describe it, all my troubles just vanished, everything just seemed to "stop meaning anything" for those 6 hours, i didnt have a care in the world, it was amazing... this is all i can say so far, as that was 2 nights ago (including this evening) it's a whole new level of intimacy i experianced with an extremely close friend who means more to me than anything in this world, and who i care about with all my heart (not in any romantic way, we're just extremely close friends) i still dont see why i deserve this honour.... im not different than the adverage joe, infact i consider myself less, i've done quite a few bad things in my life, certainly things that wouldnt get me into "heaven", but i dont know now it's like i know nothing anymore, the universe is suddenly so much bigger, and i keep asking these questions, i cant think of anything else but that of what happend to me, it's rather disturbing, i've even found myself questioning my sanity (something i could never wish upon anybody, a most disturbing feeling). but, i think im still sane, she's lived with it for 20 years, and so has her best friend, why does suddenly finding out make me want to bring everything in life to a hault so i can re-evaluate reality?? i just dont know anymore... __________________ O_O! 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