I'm an insomniac. It's not that I don't want to sleep, it's that I can't. Sometimes I go to sleep after not sleeping for a day or two and I just can't fall asleep, I just lay there looking at the ceilling. occasionally I'll get up and get a drink, work out to try to tire myself, or get on the internet. it really sucks. when I know I need sleep (test, work, etc.) I usually drug myself with some painkillers I have leftover from a car accident a while ago. but sometimes, when I'm at a friend's house I will fall asleep in a chair or something, when I'm actually wanting to stay awake. so then when I get home (after almost falling asleep at the wheel) I got to bed and just lay there, not being able to fall asleep again.
it really makes me fear for my health because I keep thinking of the day when I haven't slept in a while and i fall sleep driving my car and drift off the road or into on-coming traffic. I wish I could get help but I haven't told anyone other than peers or gone to the doctor because I just don't think they'll believe me.
sorry for the rant but you said this was a place to vent
