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I dont really know what to do with this and its been annoying me for a while now. Most my life we have been pretty well off being as both my parents work - my mother as a nurse and my father as a telecommunications engineer bringing in a six figure income to the family by himself.

In 2001, my father lost his job and he's been unemployed since then leaving the family to rely on his savings and my mothers job to sustain our financial stability. Its been 2 years now and my dad isnt getting any younger ( he's 51 ) and i dont foresee him getting a job anytime soon but lets hope im wrong. My mother works 12 hour night shifts at the hospital which in itself is making her increasingly tired as she cannot recuperate well in the day plus she now has to work alot more being the only income. Also, she has been diagnosed with colon cancer earlier this year. Everything seems to be fine now as she has gotten operated but she still should be resting alot more than she is now. Now my quarrel is with my father .. what the fuck is he doing. I get so worked up over this.. my mom needs her rest as her health has been declining but he doesnt do a thing. He still goes to job interviews and the such but he nevers get them. Im tired of seeing him waste away in his underwear 24/7, hoping for something to happen. I've told him many times to 'atleast' get a lower income job to help support so that my mother does not have to go overboard on the work hours but he doesnt listen..

I dont know what to do anymore. Im 18 and currently in college but still living at home and i have been thinking of quitting to get a full time job to help my mother. Now , i dont want to do this i want to stay in school and build myself a future but at the same time its heartbreaking to see my mother like this.

I guess i have to step up to the plate and become the man of this family..