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I can't say I am expert in this field. I really to be honest don't know if I have ever really been in love. I know what I think love should be for myself. I know what I want love to feel like within for myself. I know how I want to be treated by someone who loves me and thats with the same respect and nourishment that can only make love grow stronger everyday. You water a lawn and watch it grow. You mow it .. you care for it and the day if ever you decide you want a diffrent yard it's because that yard no longer has the ability to fullfill your needs. It could maybe.. with alot of work. If you have the energy and the time to form it back into your wants.
I have been what I wanted to believe was love. But for me I question now in my life, how could it have been love when it came down to the same option as I read above. Something for me was missing in that relationship for me to have ever thought about wanting to cheat and for all that matters for someone to have cheated on me. I have walked away as a friend and I have walked away as an enemy. I am involved in a relationship right now. No it's not easy, it takes work on both sides. I'm still not sure what love is all about.. but I am learning and hope neither of us ever feel like walking away from this one till the day we have to walk through heavens door and meet our maker.
Should either of our heads turn towards thoughts of another with thoughts of actually wanting to follow through with the action of those thoughts? Naww! Then somethings wrong with the relationship. Hopefully we both have what it takes out of some self dignity and respect for the other person involved to at least be honest and open enough to admit to it before hand and not be in such denial to think it's okay and everything is just hunky dory. Life as usual... yeah right!
It doesn't go without someone loosing something that is so priceless within. And that would be? "Trust" .. the trust you put in another person with what? The most valuable thing you can give a person and thats the love that comes from deepest part of ones heart. And that love is? Being able to give the person you are within so freely..trustingly and not to mention innocently. To allow someome access to see you for who you are right down to the bare necessity of your soul being of life and the way you live it, thinking you would never be hurt and your world never shatter is one of the hardest things I have in my life yet to find again.
Best senerio would be that we could hopefully walk away friends and I wouldn't piss in his whiskey. ( *Scratches Head*.. I must have alot pissing thoughts on my mind here in the last two days) Anyway to make my long story shorter. :-)
To share together is one thing but to cheat? All I can say on that is just becareful with not only your heart but the heart of the person you may be with. But thats just my opion. Some people can do it and feel just fine. Guess thats what makes this world and life what it is. Learning experinces and finding out what a person as one individual on the face of this planet we live on want in life and from life for ones self.
Continue... life as usual. Thanks for the good conversational as well as thought provoking thread here.
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