Another thought provoking thread from Lurkette...very nice.
It's a paradox for me. The last soul wrenching bout of longing I had was in the early days of dating my wife. It was horrible. The emotional trampoline I was on became unbearable at times. And yet, there are times these days when I miss it.
To explain...at the time I knew I was in love but my wife was "not ready for a commitment." She wanted to continue dating other people. Oh...it sucked.
I was so smitten it was pathetic. The things I used to do to try and win her over.
Now that my life and emotions have returned to a steady baseline, there are times I really miss the excitement, the sheer depth of raw emotion I used to feel. I think the challenge for both of us now is finding a way to keep our marriage as vibrant as our courtship. We're having a problem doing that, but that's a different subject for another thread.
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When life hands you a lemon, say "Oh yeah, I like lemons. What else you got?"
Henry Rollins
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