I long to feel things that I did in the past. To recreate moments that have long gone.
It is not so much one person or a place. It is just the emotion that went with it. It is hard to explain really.
Somedays it really brings me down and I will cry a lot remembering how things used to be. Other days I am fine. But it seems that I am always haunted by a longing of some sort.
There was this one time in particular when my ex-fiance and I were in Virginia Beach. We were out on this huge pier and there was this storm coming. The sky was black on one side of the ocean and the pier was the center point between the storm and the calm. A huge rainbow streched over the ocean on the dark side. I cannot explain how beautiful this was and how filled with emotion I was. Being there and sharing that with him, a person I loved more then life itself, was so incredibly intense.
Now years later I have moved on and I think and long for those feelings and that intensity.
Just to go back one more time and redo it all.
I find that longing makes it really hard sometimes to move forward in life......it is not healthy to linger so much in the past.
I don't ever really deal with any of this pain. I just accept it as part of life.
Last edited by *Nikki*; 01-22-2004 at 08:00 AM..
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