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Junkie
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Well well welly welly well! It looks like shit because you're probably using IE, which makes me glad that I use Mozilla. I opened up the same page and IE and did indeed find that it looked like shit and even had a cheeseey MIDI playing in the background.
I don't know why the hell I'm doing this, but for those of you who can't read it, here it is (even though it's not worth wasting those four minutes of your life that you'll never get back reading it...):
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Someday We Will Be...
Because We Promised We Would
About four years ago, when life wasn't so hard, and friends and good times
were all that really mattered, a young girl about 14 years of age lived
her life of simplicity. Her name was Leana. She was currently with someone
totally different from her, and not to mention, a pure heart breaker and
loser. But hey, life was good, she was young, and basically that didn't
really matter. All that mattered was that she knew what it was like to feel
for a guy at that time, and to live her life of endless happiness with her
friends and family. One afternoon, she stood on the grassy hill after
school, embracing her so-called boyfriend Jerry. And at that moment, about
10 feet away, at the flagpole, stood a boy about two years older than
Leana by the name of James. He watched her gently hug her boyfriend, and
then slowly walk away, until he could no longer see her image. He never
knew what it was like to feel for anybody, however, a strange feeling
inside took over him. Something extremely unexplainable, and so confusing.
And he thought to himself,
'One day, I just gotta meet her.'
"Hey James!" a boy called out. "Why do you look all dazed off en stuff?"
"Ah nothin' Jay, lets just go home now" James replied.
When James had arrived to Jay's house, they sat down for some soda, and
James had totally gotten his mind off of that strange feeling.
"Damn, I forgot to go call my homegirl man, can you hand me the phone
James?" Jay asked as he took a sip of his soda.
"Hello may I please speak to Leana? This is Jay," he asked.
Jay and Leana began to conversate, until he remembered to do some
chores. So he handed the phone to James.
"Here man, can you go talk to her for awhile, I gotta do some stuff for my
dad real quick?"
"Aight cool" said James.
"Hello! Yeah hi this is James! Who's this?"
"Oh this is Leana" she replied.
After that one conversation, Leana and James began to keep in touch with
phone calls everyday. Neither one of them knew what they looked like, or so
they thought. For James was totally clueless that that one girl he watched
from the flagpole the other day, was the very girl he was laughing and
talking with everyday. It had been weeks, and then months, and Leana and
James grew close, and told one another everything imaginable. And with this
bond, they became the best of friends. Still not knowing what they looked
like in person, James decided to visit Jay again after school, which of
course so happened to be the same school as Leana. James knew for a fact
that Leana went to that school, but still didn't know what she looked like.
Till that day after school...
As James walked onto the campus, he stood by the same flagpole, and waited
for Jay. He watched the crowd of people, chatting about, and doing their
own thing, until he spotted that one girl he had seen that one afternoon.
He was so caught up by the way she carried herself, and how different she
seemed from the other girls. She was shy, mature, quiet, and simple. None
of that make up stuff all over her face. As he admired her, something
immediately caught his attention...
"Ey Leana, wassup!" a girl called out, walking towards the girl James was
admiring.
"Wassup" she said with a grin on her face.
'Oh my god! Could that be Leana? The girl I've been talking to on the phone
with?' James said to himself. He was so surprised.
He walked up from behind Leana, and tapped her on her shoulder and quickly
turned around, pretending he didn't do anything.
Disturbed as Leana could be said "How rude!" And all James could do was
laugh...
He couldn't believe that that girl he was so eager to meet, was the very
girl he had been talking to for quite awhile now...Leana.
He called her that day, and told her that he saw her. Leana was so
surprised.
"Oh that was you, that one guy who tapped me on the shoulder huh?" she
laughed.
Inside, Leana and James felt something so weird, every time they talked and
every time they were apart. They felt something inside when they thought of
one another. But the feelings they felt, they let it pass, and denied it to
themselves, as if it were simply nothing. They wondered about these
feelings time to time, but never really tried to figure out what it meant,
or what it was. Leana and James told one another about their lives, their
fears, problems, and little infatuations over people every now and then,
but never the kept feeling inside for one another. One rainy day, Leana
called James up crying about losing Jerry. He comforted her so much, and
she felt so much better when he did. James was always there for Leana, and
he never once let her down. That's one thing she loved about him so much.
Not to mention, they were so much like one another, always making people
laugh, and always making each other happy. Some say that these two were
exactly the same, except different names, and the opposite sex of course.
Summer came and James and Lena spent more time with one another, and
finally got to see each other in person. They met each other at Jays' house
one day, and Leana's heart dropped when she saw James for the first time.
She watched him play on the computer, just as he watched her that one day
after school. When it was time to go home, James gave Leana his school ID
and she said her goodbye with a warm embrace to James. They both blushed,
and that same unexplainable feeling took over the both of them. Leana knew
then what that long time feeling she had been feeling all those times. She
was no longer in denial...she liked him. The first person she told was her
best friend Lae, who too knew James. She was shocked! Days later, James was
talking to Jay, as he said,
"Hey Jay, I think I like Leana."
"Really! Wow.. that's cool"
From that day on forward, only five people knew, Jay, Lae, Leana, James,
and god himself. And it was up to fate to lead the both of them to their
destiny. It had been a whole year, and Leana and James still didn't want to
admit their feelings to one another. They knew what was up, but never took
the risk to admit. Until Leana hinted him out what she felt.
"I'm suppose to tell you everything right, James?" she asked him.
"Duh! Why? You like someone huh?" he replied.
"Uh yeah, sort of" she said.
"Who?" he asked.
"Well, he has the same background as you, about your height, your age, and
you know him very well. You see him everyday," she hinted out.
James knew then what that meant. He felt the same, but was so afraid to
show it, because he never had a girlfriend in his whole entire life. He
knew it was him, and Leana was so relieved telling him Day by day they
flirted every now and then and admitted their feelings in ways only they
could understand.
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On October 11, 1996, James and Leana both officially started seeing
each other. He was the most perfect guy you could ever meet in Leana's eyes
to be exact He was tall, handsome, great sense of humor, caring, loving,
just everything close to being perfect in Leana's eyes. And his eyes, his
eyes were so warm, so sexy, so... WOW! And she was everything she thought
of him to James. Everyone said that they were the most cutest, and perfect
couple. And they were both so happy with one another. Everyone even thought
they'd get married someday. He did everything for, to, and because of her,
and she surely did the same for him. Their forgiveness, love, passion, and
care were endless for one another. These two were inseparable, and in love.
He always told her,
"You're such a big baby...you and those big brown eyes of yours, and those
cute chubby cheeks...God I love you!" and kissed her lovingly on her lips.
"I love you too babe," she'd always reply.
Two years passed, and James of course graduated and things began to change.
They got into many fights, and Leana began to feel the hurt inside, she
never ever felt before. James told her though, that throughout all this
negativity, he still loved her.
He took her hand one day, as she cried cold painful tears, and looked her
in her eyes and said,
"No matter what, through it all, this is it...there's no one else but you.
I will always love you, and I will always end up with you...I promise," and
wiped her tears away as he kissed her forehead gently.
James, began to change, and emotionally hurt her daily. Her sweetest and
most perfect man was slowly disappearing into someone she never knew. He
began to stop doing things for her, he stopped making her happy, and he
stopped saying sweet things. He stopped visiting her, and stopped calling,
and always chose his friends over her.
When they argued, he'd yell at her, hang the phone up on her, and leave her
with so much pain and nothing to do but cry. It was soon passed half a
year, and things gotten worse. When she tried telling him how she felt, he
just let it pass. He started lying about many things, and became so
unfaithful to her. He began to drink, which he promised he wouldn't, and
hung out with his friends morning, noon, and night, and never had time for
her. James did things that his old sweet self would never do before. He
left her many times at home just crying, and didn't even bother to see if
she was okay. Basically, Leana was in love with someone who seemed to not
love her back anymore. They were together alright, but didn't seem like it
to Leana. It hurt too much inside, but because Leana loved him so much, she
never did let him go. She took the pain, and cried endless tears, and still
loved him through it all, while he was out breaking promises, and being
someone he knew he never was before. There never passed a day when Leana
didn't think about him, worry about the relationship, wonder why he was the
way he was, or cried about the hurt. The pain he caused her scarred her
heart deeper and deeper everyday. Her family was affected, her friends, and
even school. Everybody was worried about her. No one ever saw her smile
anymore, and if she did, it was only for a while. She hardly slept, and just
everything in her life fell apart. All because that one most perfect human
being who walked into her life, and who she loved so much, hurt her in ways
that could never be fixed. James basically left her out of his time, out of
his reach, out of his life. He acted as if she wasn't even his girlfriend.
She did as much as she could for him, though he didn't see it, and
sacrificed her whole life for him. She did anything to make things work,
but he didn't do much at all. She tried so hard to figure out what the
problem was, & why he hurt her so much.
"How can God give you the most perfect gift of your whole life to love, and
take it away as if it wasn't yours to keep" she asked everyday.
James became meaner and meaner, and it hurt her more and more. One day he
picked her up from school, and his was so different. She looked at him
slowly. His built was bigger, his lips...no smile, his voice so monotone,
and his eyes... She looked at his eyes through the rear view mirror, and
she began to cry. His eyes were so cold now, and that love, warmth, and
sweetness she use to see no longer existed. James wasn't James anymore.
They didn't speak a word that car ride home, and all she could think was
'Why? Why was it like this now?' She came home and cried her heart out.
All that played in her head was the days he always dropped by just to see
her, just to hold her. Now, he seemed as if he didn't even want to hold her
anymore, touch her, or look at her. She blamed herself for all of this,
didn't know why, but it just seemed like it was her fault She lay in bed
that night reminiscing about the nights they laid together in bed, and he
held her close to his body, and never did let go. How she use to wake up
summer mornings, and he'd be smiling and watching her sleep till she got
up. Why was everything so hard now, and why did it hurt so much? She
remembered the sweet ring of his voice constantly telling her he loved her,
while they kissed, or just stared into each other's eyes. She remembered
the days when he'd stroke her hair, and laid the most simplest, sweetest,
kisses on her lips. She remembered the days when he'd run all the way to
her house just to hug her tight, and she remembered the days when just
everything between them was so perfect. She cried helpless tears, and all
hope was just gone. She knew she was still so young, but regardless what
age she was, it still hurt. She felt that endless pain that shuts your
whole life and hope down. The point was, she felt it, and she didn't know
how to make it go away. There were times where she'd think about leaving
him, but she imagined how worse the pain would feel knowing she lived a
life without him. Just as long as she knew she was his, and he was hers
made the slightest bit of feeling okay. Her tears fell harder, and her mind
began to shut down on her. All she could think was
"God I love you James, I miss your old self so much."
One afternoon, James picked her up from school again. They were both
walking until Leana began to cry like usual.
"Why are you crying again damn it!" James yelled.
"Nothing..." she struggled to say.
"You know what I hate about seeing you all the time, is that you always end
up crying on me for no fucking reason! What the hell am I doing wrong now
shit!" he yelled again.
She tried to hug him tight, yet he resisted.
"I love you James, I'm sorry," she cried.
"Yeah, whatever," he coldly said.
James was so frustrated, didn't know what he was thinking, didn't know what
he was doing. A confusion of being with her or leaving her just rushed
through his head, as they walked towards the car. Suddenly, in the midst of
it all, a loud bang alerted them both. James didn't know what it was. He
turned around to see if Leana heard it,
"Ey did you... NOOOOOO!" he cried.
Leana had been shot on her right side, as she laid bleeding, and gasping
for breath on the street by James' car. He ran over to her as everyone
crowded around.
"Fuckin' call 911" he screamed, as tears began to roll down his eyes.
"Babe are you okay?" he asked, holding her in his arms.
Leana slowly reached to touch his right cheek, as she looked him in the
eyes, and lightly smile.
"Babe, I'm so sorry if I did anything wrong to make us the way we are now"
she struggled to say.
"Leana don't even say that, you're going to be okay...God someone help!" he
cried.
"You hurt me a lot James, but I still continued to love you. Because no
matter what, through it all, that's it, there's no one else...no one else
but you," she smiled, and coughed as she gasped for air.
She began to cry, and still the pain she felt within her heart still struck
her like always. Flashbacks of their times together rushed through her
mind, and she could hardly keep her eyes open, as her helpless body lay
strongly against James' chest. James crying harder than ever looked down
into her eyes, hoping she wouldn't die.
"Babe I'm so sorry for everything, God I love you! You cant leave, we're
suppose to get married remember? Remember babe, I promised, this is it,
it's you that I'm suppose to end up with. Babe remember?" he cried.
"I know I know," she nodded her head slightly up and down, as her tears
began to mix with the bright red blood upon her body.
James held her tighter and closer to his body.
"God please no, don't take her away from me..." he whispered.
Leana's hand began to slowly drift away from his cheek, as she struggled to
keep her eyes open.
"I love you so much James, and I wish I could've made everything all
better. But babe, everything I did, every tear I cried, I did it all
for you...everything...I love you babe," she said, "I don't wanna go, but I
have to, and God knows I love you. We'll be together again babe. Remember,
because you said, we will always be together. We will." She said slowly as
one last tear rolled upon her cheek, and dropped slowly on James hand.
Her eyes closed, "I love you," she whispered, and Leana had passed away.
"Noooo!!" James cried. "You cant go.." he rocked her back and forth, and
tried to wake her up.
"Babe? Babe? Wake up..c'mon Leana. Please please...we can work things out I
promise, c'mon babe, we're suppose to get married babe, wake up! Babe?
Please..." he begged.
He closed his eyes and rested his head upon hers as endless tears continued
to fall.
"God I'm so sorry I didn't take care of you babe, I'm so sorry," he cried
as he kissed her forehead.
All James could do was cry, and hold her until the ambulance came. As they
put her on a stretch, and placed a white blanket over her head, it began to
rain. James on his knees looked up into the sky and cried his heart out.
"I love you Leanaaa!!!!" he screamed.
"I love you." He whispered one last time.
From that day on, James knew there was nothing else he could fix. His life,
his love, was no longer there. And all he could think about was her smile,
and that one day she lay in his arms dying. He will always remember her,
and will always love her. Because this is it, it was her, that he chose to
love for life. You see, life is never forever, and things come only once.
You don't know how long you'll get to keep things, and you'll never how
long you'll get to live. But as long as you know you've got something in
your life you love, and cherish so much.. make the best of it. Because one
day, when you least expect it, you could lose the most important thing in
your life you set your whole future for. Take care of things while their
still small, and most of all take much care of the people you love. Because
one day, it just might be too late to take care of anything, or even see
them smile again. Trust me. I know..some day we will be...because we
promised we would.
Author: Unknown
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Wow, I was right  It does try to make a moral point. Heh, thought so (I didn't bother to read all the way through the first time because it was just too much nonsense). Well, each to their own.
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