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This is all an exercise. A modern day courtly love. The abstraction of a real person into the ultimate perfect woman. You don't really know her, and she's flaking out on you consistently. I've been in your situation before... you need to just get away from abstraction and move towards action.
I have a feeling this attachment is a safety net for you. As long as you're devoted to this girl that you don't really have to face the real danger of having a real relationship with real intimacy. Get outside of your box, and reach out to someone. But do not let any of this limit you in moving on with your life out when you get out of high school. It just isn't worth it.
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Innominate.
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