Death is cold and forever, while life can change for the better when you least expect it.
Here is a thread where many people give their perspectives on this issue. Maybe you can find some hope in it, or at least the knowledge that you are not the only one who feels as you do. Not everyone who posted on it is sensitive to the problem, but it seems as if many are.
http://www.tfproject.org/tfp/showthr...threadid=33836