Jimbob666

Bet you've never heard this problem before! (yeah, that's sarcasm)

I've had feelings for my best friend since the day I met her, several years ago. Over the years, those feelings have intensified to the point where I think about her constantly. I lust after her, but I think it's safe to say my feelings are much deeper than that. She is fully aware of my feelings, and does not share them. Further, I know that we could never work as a couple. We're both too stubborn, we're both always right, and being anything more than friends would likely very quickly lead to being less than friends.

The problem is that knowing this doesn't change my feelings. In fact, they get stronger every day. It is affecting our friendship somewhat, but mostly it's just making me miserable. She's been really cool about everything. I can't develop any interest in other girls. I've been with girls prettier than her, and all through sex I'm picturing her instead. Every time I masturbate, it's her I'm thinking about. I don't think it would be an exaggeration to say that every time I've orgasmed for a few years now, her face has been in my mind.

So, my sex life sucks. I'm losing sleep thinking about her and this shitty situation. I haven't had a real girlfriend since I met her, and I've ignored the advances of several very attractive, interesting girls simply because they weren't her. I compare all other girls to her, and they just don't stack up. I also feel guilty, because while she's very cool and understanding, I'm sure it's weird for her. We share everything, and she can always read me. She knows I jerk off thinking about her every night. That's creepy for me, so it's gotta be for her. So basically, I need to get over her. I've tried. I've even slept with girls just to try to get over her, thinking that maybe then I'd think about them instead of her. I'm starting to think that I'm never going to be really happy with another woman. It's really scary. How can I get over her?