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raeanna74 · 12-15-2003, 07:51 PM

To those of you here who have struggled with this - Thankyou for sharing your stories. To you who are still dealing with depression and thoughts of suicide - Thankyou as well and I hope you find relief from your pain. To C/B I agree with numist - It's time for a new boyfriend who will help you not hurt you. Hugs hon.

Personally I have considered it when I went through some real depression. My depression was related to an abusive boyfriend as well as health problems. I got away from the boyfriend and then got medical help from my family Dr. I am glad to say I don't deal with that depression anymore.

My parents both attempted it. My father numerous times. At one point he was completely insane - He was hallucinating, did not know his own children for a time, could not even communicate normally with anyone. He was in his own world and he was GONE to my brother and I for 6 months (in the clinic that long). He had medical problems for sure. He's tried every antidepressant I think they've made. He attempted suicide 4 times before I attended college and got worse while I was away. I don't even know how many times he did that while I was away. They stopped accepting him at the mental health clinic he was such a frequent visitor and he ended up just going to the hospital to get his stomach pumped or whatever medical treatment he needed. Glad to say he hasn't attempted recently but I'm not a stranger to seeing him in tears. As a child and even now as adults my brother and I both deal with some resentment. We don't quite understand his reasons. To us it seemed like he just wanted attention. I know now it was at least in part because of the brain chemicals and how he's wired. It was also because of his environment when he was growing up.

I guess I can be glad to say that his attempts at least thus far have turned my brother and I off from making any attempts because we cannot even consider doing something that caused us so much pain.

12-15-2003, 07:51 PM	#95 (permalink)
raeanna74 I'm not a blonde! I'm knot! I'm knot! I'm knot! Location: Upper Michigan	To those of you here who have struggled with this - Thankyou for sharing your stories. To you who are still dealing with depression and thoughts of suicide - Thankyou as well and I hope you find relief from your pain. To C/B I agree with numist - It's time for a new boyfriend who will help you not hurt you. Hugs hon. Personally I have considered it when I went through some real depression. My depression was related to an abusive boyfriend as well as health problems. I got away from the boyfriend and then got medical help from my family Dr. I am glad to say I don't deal with that depression anymore. My parents both attempted it. My father numerous times. At one point he was completely insane - He was hallucinating, did not know his own children for a time, could not even communicate normally with anyone. He was in his own world and he was GONE to my brother and I for 6 months (in the clinic that long). He had medical problems for sure. He's tried every antidepressant I think they've made. He attempted suicide 4 times before I attended college and got worse while I was away. I don't even know how many times he did that while I was away. They stopped accepting him at the mental health clinic he was such a frequent visitor and he ended up just going to the hospital to get his stomach pumped or whatever medical treatment he needed. Glad to say he hasn't attempted recently but I'm not a stranger to seeing him in tears. As a child and even now as adults my brother and I both deal with some resentment. We don't quite understand his reasons. To us it seemed like he just wanted attention. I know now it was at least in part because of the brain chemicals and how he's wired. It was also because of his environment when he was growing up. I guess I can be glad to say that his attempts at least thus far have turned my brother and I off from making any attempts because we cannot even consider doing something that caused us so much pain. __________________ "Always learn the rules so that you can break them properly." Dalai Lama My Karma just ran over your Dogma.