I have a living enigma inside of me.
For the last few years I have had a constant battle between my spirituality and my philosophy; although, I have found my self on several occasions using one to explain (or possibly express) the other, they do not perfectly coincide. By natural selection, or social programming or what have you, I was raised a Christian. The lessons taught in the religion still ring true to me as I've said before. I believe in the story of Jesus of Nazareth, but (i think) more importantly, I believe in the active Christ Consciousness linking together all humanity -- past, present and future. My search of philosophy largely stems from my consciousness seeking something further to fill in the gaps where the church fell short. In the end, I found my basic beliefs to rest in line with most existentialists and the belief in the absurd -- after all, if the idea of God isn't absurd, what is?
Kierkegaard
(if you want the excerpt that I'm refering to its in my journal) has written this example of a man falling in love with woman that he cannot have. The man, or knight, resigns that he loves her infinitely and eternally, without the need of a finite definition -- this is a beautiful thing in and of its self. BUT the Knight of Faith, believes that what is infinitely possible is also possible in the finite -- and why? because of the belief in the absurd, because of his trust in God.
There are millions, billions of people on this earth, and most of them claim to lay their faith in some supreme being -- and yet no god of heaven or earth moves for their people. In turn, many have rejected the idea of God, or in the very least forgotten about Him and the world has been left without a soul. I've been to church -- all kinds of churches. I've seen some shit that most people wouldn't believe -- hell, I wouldn't believe it if I hadn't been there - some of it I don't believe and I was there. I guess my question is -- where have we lacked? What is lost that was once here? is this a faithless world? An act like infinite resignation, takes motion - movement Kierkegaard calls it - in the spiritual realm. An act like faith requires even more from the soul.
What's stopping the world from solving problems like famine (this country produces five times the amount of food to feed the world and the government pays farmers to leave it sit and rot in their graineries,) or war or any other social injustice. . . ok
/rant