turbodriven

As I've understood, a love addict is, in it's rawest form, is someone who cannot stand being alone. Even if it's with the wrong person... having companionship is better than being lonely. And if you ARE alone, your life seems miserable. Even with money, friends and family surrounding you.

Well I'm a Love Addict. And it feels like it's a quality that is built into me. Something that I'll always be. Anyone have any insight on this horrible addiction? Perhaps a cure... or at least a medicine to help pass the cravings. I ask this because after many many failed relationships I have recently failed another one. By failed I mean that most of my failed relationships end with the girl saying "I'm just not ready for more" (ie: family, marriage, kids yada yada). This recent one, I only saw her for about a month and a half so I wasn't "In Love" yet. But it still hurts and I think it's mostly because I dread being lonely again. I also dread having to start fresh again. I'm not necessarily missing HER but more missing having SOMEONE there.

By the way... I'm 32, attractive (I look 27), no kids, have enough money to own my own home and have all the expensive boy toys I've ever wanted or would want in the future, I'm surrounded by good friends, and my family is spread around the country (no local relatives). I seriously could be a movie depicted "player" if my heart wasn't so good. But in no way do I not have the tools to break my addiction. Just can't seem to put the pieces together you know?

P.S. - Although depression may be a part of my problem. I want to take care of the source and not fix the symptom unless it's the only choice. The source of course I think is my Love Addiction.