I'm afraid that's probably what I'm going to have to do. Thing is, I lost my faith a long time ago. I barely ever meet females who I actually like & can hold a conversation with. It doesn't help that I live in a sexually repressed country (New Zealand), that I'm unemployed & depressed and have no convenient means of getting into a conversation with females. I don't so much have a problem with what to say and do, nor with looks or anything, it's just getting in a position where I can be myself that's the problem.
This girl was someone I was prepared to put a lot of effort into, and immediately my attitude and demeanour picked up and was a lot better in the short time I was talking to her. Now that this crap is happening, I'm back in the same hole where I started.
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