noodles

no

i'm constantly surrounded by people who probably think they're my friends but don't really know me at all. i had a birthday party that lots of people came to and i realized that very few of them were friends of mine, only one or two of which i would consider good friends.

i had a wonderful, smart, incredibly sexy girlfriend who i think knew me best out of anyone else in the world. but she broke up with me in order to hang out a lot and be friends (and only friends [really]) with one of my friends (i know thats kind of confusing. its a long story). i've been kind of crushed since then; i don't really have much self esteem or self confidence in the realm of women.

i'm not happy because i often find myself totally alone while surrounded by people that i don't really know and don't know me. i'm worried that i'm too shy and socially inept to be able to find someone to spend the rest of my days with. or at least, a few days with.

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