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I think some counseling might be in order - your school probably has a free counseling service.
It sounds to me like you've allowed yourself to sort of drift along in life and never really thought about what YOU want. Not what your mom wants or what's easiest. You say you really want to go back home and go to a state college and be a teacher. Is it because you really want to do that, because it sounds fulfilling (in which case I say go for it) or because it's an easy alternative to where you are now? There's nothing wrong with state colleges, and there's nothing wrong with being a teacher. It sounds like you should break up with Becca for her own sake if you can't stay faithful to her. You should maybe work on developing some maturity before you jump into another relationship. As for your two friends, you can keep in touch by email or whatever.
The best advice I can give to you is to write down where you want to go with your life - what what do you want to be doing in 5 years? In 10 years? and then work backwards from there to see what you need to do now. If you allow yourself to be led by a future that you've created and that excites you, it's a lot more effective than being led by the whims of the moment.
And go see a counselor.
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