i stink... i am sad all the time... and completely overwhelmed with life.
i have an amazing wonderful husband, 2 beautiful and wonderful children, i live in a great place with loving and friendly neighbors.. we have a cat, bunny rabbits, flower gardens... i am blessed by many things... i should be happy, but can't really remember a time in my life that i ever have been really happy.
i feel stupid, inept, like a total failure... i rarely talk about it because no one wants to be around someone who is sad all of the time.
... and yes, i am seeing a doctor... i am on anti-depressants... they keep from feeling completely desperate... but the happiness still eludes me... has for most of my life actually.
*hating that i sound like such a loser in this post*
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