I really don't want to say I've considered suicide, but lately I have been thinking about it, I'm kinda concerned I am even thinking about it. Sometimes everything seems like an avalanche and all I have to dig myself out of the dirt is a broken shovel and a tired arm. My thought process refuses to let me ponder the thought for too long; I have a daughter who turns 1 November 30 who I love more than anything, and I think she'd be better off with me alive. Usually that thought gets me out of thinking bad thoughts like that for too long. But I understand why a person would do such a thing; if you see your life as the center of a storm of problems, your mind backs itself into a corner, and suicide becomes a solution in a world where solutions appear to be non-attainable.
I think this is a good thread (although the title is kind of dreary) and I hope to see it continue to be a positive one. I think this could be very helpful and encouraging to others, including myself.
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