We've talked about it, and he and I really still care for each other, we've just been in a relationship that had a complicated beginning, has been complicated the whole way through, and right now is just too much for him to handle. I understand that completely... it's just hard to look in his eyes.
We went out today with a group of friends. This was planned months ago, so we decided that we'd still go. It was semi-awkward. We ended on decent terms, and had decided that we were going to wait about a week before we really let anyone know (waiting to find out some other things first......
). It was strange to still be relatively "together". It seemed so natural, and yet, I was constantly guessing about whether or not I should do such and such a thing or say such and such a thing. After a while, the awkwardness kinda wore off, and I think we're gonna be ok. Friends, not anything else. It'll work that way, I think. I just know it'll be hard for a while for me to look into his eyes. I think I'll end up needing encouragement/support from time to time, but ours is a friendship worth saving, if nothing else.