Okay. The situation is as follows:
My Girl and I broke up
Various reasons mostly my fault, but none of which left any animosity between us.
Regardless i took it pretty hard, and i needed some time away from her which is hard because my friends were sort of her friends when we starting going out and they all became decent friends when we did go out. (like a year)
Bassically it just made me miserable to be around her, she pussified me i'm over that now though. So now that i not only don't want her back, but wouldn't take her back if she asked me too. I'm wondering how to proceed from here.
She wanted to be friends from the get go, and even considered friends with benifts there for a while, untill her morals kicked in
but I've been a real douche to her for the last month and a half, and now being around eachother is really aqward and hostile.
Basically i told her before that i needed time away from her, i took that time and i can't believe it, but all that time i took to sort things out actually worked.
I do want her as a friend, as i think it would be a wicked asset to have a friend that is a girl whom i could talk to about things that i wouldn't talk to about guys, especially one who knows me so well.
Then there is also this minor issue that i'm in college, and paying my own way. Thanks to alaska dividends i won't be in debt when i get out of college, but i don't have a car, and its getting fucking cold outside when i go to class on my bike. She does have a car and last year we planned our scheduels together so i could hitch rides.
I can get a car, but i'd prefer not to as it would make money very tight.
However i think that if I start trying to be all buddy buddy with her when the snow hits she'll think that i'm just useing her for her car. (shes got gnarly issues with being used)
So i'm thinking that i need to clue her into my situation soon so that she doesn't get it in her head that I'm just using her, which i have no intentions of.
Bassically i don't want her in that way anymore, but she's still a really cool person (usually), and it would be a loss, all be it an acceptable one if she faded from my life.